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2009-08-19T12:04:00.000+08:00

HELLO, I'VE MOVED! http://kitty.onsugar.com/

PLEASE RELINK. TYVM, ARIGATO GOZAIMASU-TA!

(L) MANY MANY.

2009-08-19T02:14:00.002+08:00

WOAHS, HOW NICE LO. GG LA, JUST WHEN I MOVED, BLOGGER OKAY LIAOS.
WHAT THE FUCK? LOLLLL.

Anyway constructing my new blog, give you guys the new link soon.
Woahs, heaven playing trick on me.

2009-08-15T02:24:00.002+08:00

街上的每一個人都看起来，比我幸福一点。用寂寞来测验，結果还是最想要你陪。
曾一起走过的地方與那些日子，我常常会梦见。一起拥有过的快乐，像断了线的風箏，再也回不來。一切的回憶都漸漸變成折磨，讓墮落的我越陷越深。
獨自一個人躲在房間，點根煙讓寂寞離我遙遠一些。其實失眠也很不錯啊，起蠻不會做惡夢。我是真心地想要給你一切，但你偏偏只要自由。那種窒息的感覺一直存在着，可是我又還能做些什麽...
我猜不到你真正的感觉，也慢慢地不了解你。一點一滴，你已疏遠我了。在你眼裏，也只有個她。我卻算不了什麽，因爲她比任何人與事物還重要。因爲她，你有了燦爛的笑容。因爲有她，你笑了... 为何我却還孤单漂浮着？一直在掙扎的我，讓飘荡的心摔得更重。粉身碎骨的我，不受控制的手，又还能抓住些什么？
我也只能紧紧地抱着跟你有关的一切，包括想着你的心痛，和愛你的辛酸。我不懂爲什麽付出的，全都落空，到底是那裏做得還不夠？
思念寫成脸上的黑眼圈。有的时候我寧願你對我懷一點。至此以來，我還无法停止幻想我们的永遠。愛你已是孤單的心事，只能像一朵玫瑰在夜里默默地坚持着。多希望你對我誠實，讓我好過一些些。
如今，我用着自己的方式來一直爱你。但我在你的心裏，有没有一点特别？就怕你終究沒發現，我其實还在你身邊。
蒼老的我們，手牵着手，白髮滿頭，幸福的以后，都離我們而去。只求在你的心中还有個我，也永远守着我們的承诺。我會默默地在等候，就算只剩遍体鳞伤的我，都要撑到最后。

2009-08-13T04:52:00.001+08:00

Ccb la, how to blog like that you tell me. Nbcb.
Fuck Blogger.

2009-08-08T04:50:00.004+08:00

THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH BLOGGER. WHAT A B!TCH,
I CANT UPLOAD ANY PHOTOS HERE. DAMN IT. EAT MY POO.
BLER BLEE BLEH. LA LA LA.
PULLS FACE -__________- WIDE WIDE LIKE THIS. TWIITZXZXZ OH MAN, I HATE BLOGGER. EEEE EWW YEWWW.

I HAVE 50 OVER PHOTOS IN MY COM NOW ): Anyway going out tmr, hope blogger will be okay again tmr, so that I can upload all the photos at one shot. I know you guys are sick of coming and looking at the bloody old post.

Anyway I changed my blog songs, let them keep you accompanied till blogger's okay, okay? :D So happy, National Day is arriving! I just bought my brother a Recoil polo tee, feel so contented altho its only $29. Buying things for someone you love is indeed... nice. Hahas! I bought a star belt from Recoil for that idiot Wongie also. Hohos. He caught and spinned 3 aliens for me. Now the house is filled with 3 aliens vs 3 piggies.

And one neutral tigger. Hahas. Pro uh, I never caught anything from those machines before x.x Anyway I so love Plaza Sing's More Than Words, they sell super cute and useful stuffs. Affordable too. Dang, and I saw these slippers from Ripples, selling for only $17 for 2. Went to C.O.A.X just now, bought 2 tops and 1 dress, total was $70 originally. After the singapore sale discount... $35! Ji tao half prize bodoh. Hohohos, so amazing. I didnt know eh! I took 2 $50 note to the counter, the girl passed me back $50, in the end still handed me another $15, I stood there for like dont know how many seconds, hoping I'm not dreaming.

Hahs! Why so cheap sia, omg. Somemore the clothes are nice one ley. Anyway I'm thinking of working at Recoil, the Hougang mall one. They're hiring ley. But like very sian, alone in the shop D: Just now the sakes assistant asked me whether wanna work or not, she wanted to pass me the form, I rejected. Lols. See first bahs. Bought two sleeping gowns. One piyo piyo and one elmo. Hahas! Elmo is pink one, piyo piyo is purple. Shower cap is sesame street de, yellow colour. Imagine me wearing all of that, with one rabbit furry furry covered flip flops, those they wear at home.. LOL.
- Burst all the bubble thoughts with a big sharp toothpick -

Kay luhs, got to go watch the shows rented back, all the photos will be posted latest by tmr. If blogger dont cock up luhs. Oh btw, I ate at this place called Central, at Parklane there, very nice eh. Affordable, nice ambience, nice food. Hongkong dishes. I had the baked rice [: Another eating place to recommend is Hougang mall's food court, the jap food at the left side, 2nd stall called Niko Niko. Very nice. I took pictures of all the food, you guys can see. Really nice. I like to share nice foods with people [:

Cannot be there with y'all, so hope you guys can bring your friends over there. Buying two more dresses tmr, didnt shop much today, only went to two shops cause Hougang mall was closing alr D: Reached Hougang mall at 9pm, thanks to the stupid taxi driver. Slower than bus you know. Bloody cheesepie. I rmb his name somemore, next time see him better take bus instead. Name is.. Quek Tee Tee. Hahahas! Okay dont be rude x; I did something so fucking embarrasing and awkward today. Omg.

There's this girl at the dvd shop, she was packing goods and squatting down, wearing full black, damn small sized. I TRIPPED over her nevermind, I stepped on her body, and KNEED her head. LOL! I thought she was a chair! LOLOLOL. So fucking paiseh. We ran off quickly after renting the discs, everyone kept laughing, I was so paiseh I left in such a hurry I forgot to take the recoil shirt. An old lady called me back. LOL. She was like, xiao jie xiao jie! Ni de dong xi bu yao na ah? LOLOL.

Okay fine, bye. Walau eh, the Garena fucking irritating, ding dong ding dong. Think is the download of the new version.

Kkays, I hear my Dreyers' icecream screaming for me in the fridge. I scream you scream we scream for... ICE CREAM! :DD I typed all these in 5 minutes, pardon the vocab and all. Weeee~ Next post then put nice nice the photos all that uh. Dunchh miiss meee orhh. And remember, blogger sucks. TTM. Boooo.

2009-07-21T08:55:00.005+08:00

My heart goes shalalalala~

New blogskin! Nice??
For you guys, I went to do links, like finally.
Everyone keep asking me to link them,
say what very unfair they link me, I never link them.
Anyway I went to Google and saw this damn interesting thingy.
I typed Charonelle, and then this site came out, showed me how many people linked me.
And what name they used to link me. Got people put heart for me la sia.
Hahahas. Various people linked me as Jiamin, JiaMin, Jia.Min, JIAMIN, Charonelle, --heismine~ (heart), JiaMin ; --MIN-x, blabla.

Funny thing is some people linked me when I dont even know them. LOL!

I watched Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince on the day its out.
Guess what? I'm so disappointed.
But nevermind, the last episode will be the best :D
Awaiting~
Dumbledore will be awake soon, now he sleeping in the coffin.
Need to sleep for one and a half years, act dead. Not sian meh? -.-
Then the show never say anything about the half bloody prince,
only show you the book then TADA! I am the HBP. Finish.
Sian diao. But okay la, at least its linked to the previous episode, to make the last episode more exciting you see.

This was found in the Ikan Billis container at work.
I told the aunty, this crabby is the ikan billis girlfriend,
so when the fisherman catch the ikan billis,
the crabby jump up also. Die together :D
Touching right my love story? Clap!

This one long ago liaos la, forgot to upload.
Never put make up look like dabian sia.
But I like my brows here, just trimmed that time (:

My new piggy, name is Xiao Bu Dian. So big still want act Xiao.
HAHAS! Bought her at Mustaffa. Kawaii ne~
I got big one, dowan small one alr :P

First time I make stars okay.
Somemore whole bottle okay.
Mai siao siao. Hahahas!
I spent $40 on this.
Inside got 530 stars okay!

Guess how many stars? 193.
I wasted 7 x;

Me, my new shades and new dress.
Don said I looked like Jap, but go Jap sure no one look at me.
HAHS!

After the not so nice Harry Potter at Iluma's new cinema,
Film Garde, the seats tamade small -.-

Me, Don, Lapool smoking Sheesha at Arab street.

Lapool, our idols, representing Spore to go to Korea for the Audi compy [:
Gambateh!

A picture speaks a thousand words,
one look you know this restaurant de food confirm inedible.

Its at Iluma, 4th floor, korean restaurant. Sucks TTM.
Anyway that's candid by Don (:

Oh and did I forget to mention I bumped into Joyce?
She's working at Iluma's Puma shop! Joyce Chua, from WRS.
She's become so skinny, and removed her extensions.
So surprised to see her. She tapped me and ran away.
She said I changed so much she couldnt recognise me, scared tap wrong person. HAHAS!

Okay, got to go sleep soon. Not feeling very well, its 9.15am now and I still cant get to sleep. Just finished chatting on MSN with Dylan.
Just now Junhao told me that I dont nice with heels and dress. Maybe my leg too big uh.
He told me I'll look better in skinnies/leggings with heels.
Thanks for the advice (:

Ciao people, next post upload my new pink elmo sleeping gown.
Damn kawaii. Hahas!
And my sesame street's bathing cap.
I wanna buy a new slipper later!
Going to Bugis and probably Paya Lebar later to shop for new clothes and do my hair.
Finally changing a new hairstyle.
Going for a more exotic hair colour, whaddya think? (:

And a hair cut after 2 years. Finally my hair has grown!
Hope it'll be back to the same length before that evil principal asked me to cut away )':

Yay gonna wear my new polka dot dress later. Black and grey. Kewlzxz.
Okay la I go off le. See Alize, got blog alr~ Hahs.
She's buying a dog soon, kewlzxz right. And lets pray for her that she'll finally catch a fishie soon, so that the fishing rod I bought for her will not be hungry already :D

2009-07-14T03:08:00.000+08:00

2009-06-20T21:13:00.004+08:00

Been a long time since I last blogged,
Nothing has changed except that...

I trimmed my brows for $9,
and its not pain at all.

Went to Cafe Cartell at Junction 8,
thats our table 53.

I found a new favourite - Cookies & Cream Smoothie

And found out that, Cafe Cartell's not nice at all ._.

And.. Cake Batter is worse than Strawberry Cheesecake.

Not forgetting Piggy, to have found her new sleeping spot.
Era's keyboard.
Eh, wait. I went there to look at them play Dota,
I didnt play (:

And this is my second husband, Jasper.
Caught smoking inside Era happily.

Realised that printing photos out from your phone only costs 50 cents at Hougang,
clear print, 4R. How nice. I'm going to print all my photos out and paste it all over my room :D

Anyway I'm planning to revamp my room, include painting. I'll upload pictures of it when I'm done. Omg I cant wait. Dream room! Hahas.

And... I got a new lanyard with many many blingblings on it! 4 diamonds dropped tho D:
I need another phone to take a pic of it cause I dont wanna take it out now,
will upload the pic tomorrow. Its black with pink and white blings.

What else... Oh, I helped out at the foodstall at Hougang, and earned $70 over these two days.
I worked for like, 12 hours in total. Kiap food, place it on the plate, wrap it, put in plastic bag and collect money. Thats all I do. But its kinda hot and oily there.

And whats worst, I fell sick yesterday. Thanks to Don, I told him I feel cold and he handed me some blue pills, said it was panadol. This is my first time eating blue panadols.
I ate 2, guess what? My whole body started to itch like hell. I couldnt stop scratching.
I even dropped tears and wanted to commit suicide, WHOLE BODY you know.
Its like damn ugly la, BUT LUCKILY after Weisheng went home ( Ya, he booked out finally ),
my rashes were all gone :D

Now I have white smooth skin again! So people, warning, dont eat blue panadols. Serious.

Oh and I talked to Agnes on the phone the other day. Wanted to meet her up to accompany her to SGH, she injured her hand, fell off the bike again D:
Takecare girl.

Stay tuned for tomorrow's post.

2009-06-04T20:59:00.005+08:00

我对不美的东西没有什么记忆 :D
Lets just pretend we had beautiful memories.
I wont be angry because you lied/broke your promise again,
but I wanna grats you for finding someone new,
I wanna thank you for proving me absolutely wrong.
That guys can be trusted.

Piglet's xiao laogong.

Bluff, one dozen become 6. Monster eat away D:
The two green tea one like dabian!
Jasper ate the strawberry and the starry night choco(left)

Weisheng couldnt meet us cause he needs to book in at 8am D:

Chatted with James just now on MSN, he showed me two very sweet pics of him and his girlfriend. Then Qisheng Laoda came to tell me Wawa and him are together finally!
Grats ah, last long you all. So happy for all of you :D
Including Gary and Zhuzhu.

Going out with Kimberley daughter, Gerald 'meimei' and Junhao BabyLJ on this Saturday!
So excited uh, long time never see them. Will be going to Expo I guess. Timing still not confirmed. Kim said something about going to the hawker centre near Esplanade to have dinner.
By the sea side somemore. LOL. Hawker centre? Beside sea? Esplanade?

O.O???

* Editted: Gerald couldnt make it on Saturday. I dont think we're going out still. Hais ):

Nothing much to blog about, just happy that all my friends I've lost contact with, are coming back one by one. Some still missing though. Well, let me end this post with this survey I found.

1.Are you single - You think? -.-
2.Are you happy - Okok lo.
3.Are you bored - Not at all.
4.Are you fair - Yeah, I wanna be even more fair!
5.Are you italian - No and never will be.
6.Are you intelligent - Intelligent until no school to study? LOL.
7.Are you honest - When I need to be.
8.Are you nice - Not when you arent.
9.Are you Irish - No and never will be.

10' Facts about you.
1.Full name - Yap Jia Min
2.Nickname - Michiko, Minmin, Jiajia liang teh, Charon, Mich, Elle, JM.
3.Birth place - Singapore, Thomson Medical Centre
4.Hair colour - Gold red brown black. Mixture.
5.Natural hair style - Long and straight.
6.Eye colour - Browish with contact lense :D
7.Date of birth - 6th of May
8.Mood - Low low low.
9.Favourite Colour(s) - PINK, white, black, red, turquoise, purple.
10.One place you like to visit - Japan.

10'questions about my love life.

1.Have you ever been in love - Deeply.
2.Do you believe in love at first sight - Why not?
3.Do you currently have a crush - I'll get crushed. LOL.
4.Have you ever been hurt emotionally - Its always the case eh.
5.Have you ever broken someone's heart - I really didnt mean to do it.
6.Have you have your heart broken - Zillions of times.
7.Have you ever liked someone but never told them - Yeah...
8.Are you afraid of commitment - At times, it can be scary.
9.Who was the last person you hug- My Piggy.
10.Who was the last person you said I love you to - My brother.

10'this or that
1.Love of lust - Love definitely.
2Hard liquor or beer - Beer
3.Cat or Dog- As long as they're fully white.
4.A few best friends or regular friends - Best friends of course.
5.Creamy or crunchy - Creamy.
6.Pencil or Pen - Pen, dont like erasing things.
7.Wild night out or a romantic night in - Romantic night in.
8.Money or happiness - Money cant buy happiness, but how can you be fucking poor and happy at the same time?
9.Night or day - Night.
10.IM or phone - Phone.

10'Have you ever'

1.Been caught sneaking out - Not anymore.
2.Seen a polar bear - Yeaps, at the zoo.
3.Done something you regret - Too much.
4.Bungee jump - Always wanted to try.
5.Eaten food that fell on the floor - Never.
6.Finished entire jaw breaker - Never.
7.Been caught naked - No, LOL. Caught? -.-
8.Wanted an ex gf/bf back - Used to.
9.Cried bcos you lost a pet - Did.
10.Wanted to disappear - Ever.

10'preferences in a partner

1.Smile or eyes - Smile.
2.Light or dark hair - Light.
3.Hugs or kisses - Hugs.
4.Shorter or taller - Taller.
5.Intelligent or Attraction - Attraction.
6.Topman or zara - Topman.
7.Funny or serious - Funny.
8.Older or younger - Older.
9.Outgoing or quiet - Outgoing.
10.Sweet or bad - Sweet AND bad. Hahaha.

10'Have you's

1.Ever performed in front of a large crowd - Yes :D
2.Ever talked on the phone for longer than 1 hr - Of course.
3.Ever walk on hands - Never.
4.Ever been to a rock concert - Never.
5.Ever been in a cheerleading team - Nope.
6.Ever been in dance team - Chinese dance counted? LOL.
7.Ever been in sports team - Badminton, Swimming, Netball.
8.Ever been in a drama play/production - Hope I had.
9.Ever owned o BWW/Mercedes Benz/Escalade/Hummer/Bentley-
To be realistic, I prefer bikes.
10.Ever been in a rap video - Nope

10'Lasts
1.Last phone call you made - Jasper 38.
2.Last person you hugged- Piggy. Repeated question -.-
3.Last person you hung out with - Don and Jasper.
4.Last time you worked - Heh?
5.Last person you talked to - Msn, David. Phone, Jasper.
6.Last person you IM'D - David lo, IM is MSN mahs.
7.Last person you text - Phone no credit, forgotten.
8.Last person you went movie with - Ehhhh, Qisheng Laoda.
9.Last person/thing you missed - Him.
10.Last website you visited - Alize's blog to vote for her.

2009-06-03T21:22:00.005+08:00

Is it really true that everything comes in a pair?

I had 10+ hotdogs, 2 satays, many cups of green tea and 1 chicken wing for BBQ.
I had fun and got to know 3 new friends. Was very happy bcos all of them loves piggy.
They fought over who to hug her, and carried her everywhere they went,
even talked to her and played with her :D

So now piggy is hanging on the window, after a wash without softener. I forgot D:
Miss her hug hug so much.
Anyway Adrian, my grand daddy, I tried the Popeyes finally. Its nice.
I had the fish and chips. But I still prefer Macdonalds :P

Gonna have doughnuts from Donuts Empire, wow! One dozen all MINEEEEE.
Gonna take pictures of it ah, later then I upload. My USB can work now! Thanks to Don.
Anyway I think the Loreal UV Whitening thingy really works.
Because my face is whiter now.

P.S. I like Weisheng's sister, Si Hui. And her friend Xue Ling :D
I also like my new friend, Ahwei. Interesting & cute.
P.P.S. Grats Maomao and Zhuzhu on coupling. No more ring for me.
P.P.P.S. Cavan's back, at the wrong time.
P.P.P.P.S. Dennis is coming out in 3 days' time. Wenzhong & Weisheng are going NS tomorrow.
Its Benson's birthday today.

* Got to go, Jasper and Weisheng's coming up for the last gathering before WS goes for NS tmr.
Gotta watch the DVD we rented. Slumdog Millionaire (:

2009-06-03T02:05:00.006+08:00

A trip to Singapore Flyers :D

All prepared to go out.

In the cab, unbearable weather!

Ya I know, I'll trim my ugly brows soon.

Thats my daughter, piggy and I inside flyer.

Piggy eating Popeyes. Never wash hand again.

Presenting Piggy, the ang zang bao.
She's so happy the sg flyers attendant said bye to her.

Got me, not scenery. Got scenery, no me.
Its all my phone's fault.

We shared the flyer with 3 angmohs.
This flyer infront of us got chiobu and shuaige D:

The tickets, $29.50 each.
Piggy: luckily I no need to buy ticket, heeee :D

Seldom get to see both my eyes in pictures.
Its time I cut my fringe.

See, my hair long alr :D

2009-05-29T06:58:00.019+08:00

I saw this in many people's blog. Decided to share it with my beloved readers (:
Having a bad day? This will cheer you up definitely. I laughed till my cheeks ached.

The Mr Brown's H1N1 Swine Flu song.

This is obviously editted from Nobody but you by Wondergirls.
Luckily he mentioned that they're chio in the video, if not sure kena sue man. LOL.
I dont know why some people are just so tensed up. I mean relax luhs, you know how much effort and creativity it takes to come up with these lyrics? Someone commented on this video, saying that Mr Brown ruined his/her favourite song.

Anyway it doesnt matter. More people love it than hate it. So.. off my playlist and ENJOY! :D
Oh yeahs and I just got to know that Whitney just got her White icecream phone too.
She thinks its cute but she agrees that the camera sucks :B

I found the coolest part of the phone. The keypads. Damn chio, light pink lights, white keypads.
It'd be better if the cover is in

hotpink!

The pink is a little too pale, but nevermind, I've decided to cover it with blingblings! :D eyes lit up *

Went for breakfast at Mac, sudden craving for hotcakes, been so long since I last had it.
Brought piggy along too, I fed her harshbrown. But piggy is an 肮脏包, she eat already never wash hands! Hahahas, later tio Swine Flu! She says: ' Nevermind la Mimi also never wash hand! '
Hor! Alize! x;

My piggy asked me to buy a pair of shoes for Mimi, she says Mimi very kelian, cos she keeps looking at piggy's shoes. Piggy really damn cute lo, bth. She's hugging my phone, sitting beside me, looking at me blog now. Will upload pictures of her soon. The LG PC Sync thingy cannot work, damn it. Nevermind, will ask for help later.

I think Mac is trying to poison me, I've been running in and out of the toilet ever since I ate the hotcakes. Eat and da bian everything out, think I'll go broke just by filling my stomach.
Just now Don smsed to mac secretly, hoping to surprise me, but..

BOTH THE TEXTS

WERE NOT

SHOWN ON THE MAC'S LCD SCREEN! HAHAHA.
Kua kua kua~ Too bad you had to spoil the surprise by telling it to me instead.
But still, thanks alot, I really appreciate that, it lights up my day x3

P/S: Xuesha is my idol forever, even though she's not as pop as Xiaxue and Dawn.
If you dont know her, you should read www.xueshasha.com from today onwards.
Who knows, she might be your next idol.
Btw she sells pretty clothes too, www.xueshashadress.livejournal.com

She has a new video with Sonia, check it out: http://www.clicknetwork.tv/watch.aspx?c=2&p=18&v=212

I dont really like it cause it spoils her image somehow. She looks kinda.. different?
And the way she speaks too lian-ish. She looks alot better in photos. More sophisticated and sweet. But anyway that video is funny, How to ace in a reality show. Her replies damn bitchy.
But I guess she did it without a choice.

P.P.S. MY KIM DAUGHTER IS BACK WITH GERALD! I can be a fortune teller, really.
After I post, she told me they patched :D Grats and last long!

Oh and I finished my ToGetHer already. Any new shows for recommend me?

Thats about it, woke up way too early, 4am?
Gotta go sleep for awhile now, ciao people ~ (L)

2009-05-27T23:15:00.004+08:00

I RECEIVED A GIFT,

MY PINK LG KF350 ICECREAM PHONE! ;D

I'm so happyzxzxz. I changed my phone finally!
Although the features are not very good, but whats so nice about this phone is,
the outer look of it. The lighting, the animations, the fonts, the sounds.
The MP3 is quite loud and clear.

But I just dont like the camera. Flip phone hard to take pics. Somemore no flash.
The manual says the cam is 3M. Which means? 3 megapixels ah? ._.
Nevermind dont care. I like can le, hahahas.

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The story of this phone's funny, at first Don told me that he lost 20k in soccer betting, and have to sell my phone away for some quick cash. I was like, oh, then gave him the phone, he asked me not to tell my mum, and told me not to be angry. At first I find it weird.
Then in the end he gave me a gift, saying that its the last gift he will give me, he's gonna run off from the debts with the company money.

Too stunned, I just turned away, asked him not to talk to me, and sat there crying.
He then asked me to open the gift first, said he gotta rush to pack things zao lor already.

I opened, and found the phone inside. Bloody hell~ Scared the shit outta me! He even helped me transfer all my songs, pics, contacts and set the the time & date.
Thanks so much! :D

Before this, he surprised me the day before, by asking Alize out. He told me he had to wash all the Mahjong tiles and clean up the whole house, cause his relatives are coming up to play Mahjong. Then after helping him do some cleaning up and preparing the food, he receieved an sms saying they've reached. So he asked me to open the door.

Guess who I saw? The little MIMI! LOLLLL I stood there for many seconds, wanted to close the door, thought I saw ghosts or something. When I stepped back, I saw Alize's silver sandals ._.
Then Weihai and her jumped out. Hahahs.

SO SO SO HAPPY to see them! :D
Ah Hwa came also lahs, cos I dont play mahs. Damn funny, Ah Hwa was damn shocked at how me and Alize behave, talking to our stufftoys. He was on good talking terms with Weihai.
He thought, woahs heng ah, at least still got someone normal beside me.
In the end Weihai used Mimi to talk in Hokkien. HAHAHA. Still can do hand actions.
Ah Hwa chua tio. He was like, tian ah~~ Jiu jiu wo ba!

In the end Alize lost around 40? Ah Hwa lost $13 and Weihai lost $10.
But Don told them to pay $10 can le. So good ah? Hahas.
Anyway I like the way he wrap gifts, I mean for a guy, who can wrap so nicely? Somemore the wrapping paper he choose is also nice. Okay lahs dont porr his lanpa already, later he fly ;p

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Special thanks to Kimberley, my silly bee daughter, thanks for the notepad you typed for me.
I really appreciate it, and am very touched. I wont delete it (:
I told you le daughter, he will come back one day, you'll just have to continue doing things for him silently, waiting for him, one day he'll notice you've changed and he'll start to miss the times you guys are together, those memories..

I'm super glad he's back to takecare of you again. Anyway, I really like the both of you together, one my 'meimei', one my daughter. I miss the times we used to skip nights of sleep just to tag hearts/fp. Sometimes is I login to help tag with Gerald, sometimes is login to tag with daughter.
I always find them so sweet, wanting to give each other a surprise by tagging silently, just to see the smile on their faces when they wake up the next morning for LP.

Love is so noble. Sacrifice nights of sleep you know. So you two must cherish this last opportunity together. Been through so much already, finally can be together again.
Dont just be friends can? I know both of you want each other badly, wanna go back to the past.
Daughter, I support this relationship but I hope you'll concentrate on your studies also.
Get Gerald to study with you, go to the library or something (:

Glad to know both of you quit Audi too. Look, its a complicated game that messed up all our lives. Daughter, try to control your emotions sometimes, dont always quarrel okay? You know quarreling over small matters is really not worth it. You might lose him again, plus it gives you wrinkles, you wont get any benefit out of it. Someone told me this, Being at war means there'll be casualties. And that means someone will get hurt.

Try to give in to small matters yeahs? And Gerald, hope you'll be more understanding, my daughter's thinking is matured, but she might be wilful at times, if she throw little girl tanrums, hope you'll think of it in a postitive way, like she's sa jiao-ing with you, wanting more attention from you? Hahas. Whatever it is, I throw little girl tantrums at times too, although I'm alr 17.

Ya la I know la old auntie right you wanna say? Lols.
Thinking of Gerald, kinda miss the smses he used to send, super crappy but super heart warming. Its like, he remember all his friends, and he likes to make them smile.
The horny cow sms and the sms saying you're gonna MIA, but you wont forget us and if we got any problems can look for you still.

My daughter also super sweet, never fail to update me about her life. She wont break contact with me even if I go MIA for a long time. MSN, calls, smses, pm.

Daughter uh, I still havent meet you before eh. So next time when you two patch right, lets meet up! Maybe can meet up with your Papa (JunHao) also, since I havent officially ask him out before.
Only bumped into each other twice, at the same place somemore. Hahs.

I'm at episode 11 of ToGetHer. Hope to finish it today. POOF! *

2009-05-25T15:48:00.011+08:00

LG IceCream phone -
Vanilla, Strawberry, Blueberry.

I want the PINK one!
So nice right, the front mini screen there still can put lighted animations/wordings!
And the words can move! @@
Cool 死了对吗？

This is the 1st LG phone that I like. I guarantee I'll buy it with my first pay :B

2 nights back, went to Admiral hilltop with Alize and Weihai. Saw Alvin, Samuel (AhMao), Sebastian, Xubin with their friends.
Sang one song with Alize, 我要快乐。

She rebonded her hair and Weihai cut his hair. Missed Alize so much, but had to leave early because we didnt have much to do there, couldnt drink much, didnt talk much, plus Alize and I were tired, but we managed to take 2 photos.
I dont have my USB, but I sent the pics to Alize. Wait till she uploads bahs [:

I really hope I can slack with Alize and WeiHai soon, at 老地方, long time never go there already.
Wonder if she can bring her cat out, never seen it before.

Anyway I found a show which I love alot other than Sky Of Love.
Its a Korea drama, The Snow Queen.

Very touching show, the female lead actress is very pretty, her clothes are super nice.
But the male lead actor is not handsome to me, too matured. I like the doctor :D

And I found one song that I wanna learn to sing, 猜不透 by 叮当. A pretty girl sang it at the pub that night when with Alize and Weihai, the girl sat behind us, the fake eyelash super thick & long. Only managed to see her side view, but whatever it is, she sings really well, her voice is loud and clear somemore.

Oh yeahs, before I go to watch my 爱就宅一起, my tigger wants to speak a few words:
Yesterday my papa win $104 from Mahjong! Papa very bad, mama fall asleep when seeing him play Mahjong he still keep say last round last round. And papa keeps spoiling mama's diet plan. Let her eat icecream, macdonalds and botak jones! Horhor!

LOLOL, so naughty right this tigger x;

2009-05-23T13:52:00.003+08:00

Turn time back...

I used to be so self centred, wanting all the attention to myself, caring for the least important things, dreaming about impossibilities, living in a fake fairytale all about me, myself and I.

I neglected everyone around me, who genuinely cared, who's been there whenever I need them.
Whereas I did nothing for them except for doing things that I dont like, things that are totally not 'me', just to make them happy. But little did I know, they arent happy at all.
Instead, they find me fake.

So I told myself, I wont give a shit about anyone else anymore, and look at this state I'm in right now. I dont need them to accept me as sisters or even friends again. But did I really did something so wrong I cant be forgiven? What do I have to do to make you guys forgive me?
I've already apologised, I know my mistakes, I know it was my fault to totally ignore you guys when y'all were so worried about me when I was missing.

But I did called Alize back. You know how remourseful I am now? If I can, I really will do anything just to attend the BBQ you guys organised for me. If I could, I'd really call all of you back then to ensure my safety.

The feeling of ' Although you did wrong, and you realised your mistake, but its all in the past and whatever you do now cant bring back time, so shut the fuck up and fuck off from our lives, it doesnt concern us whether you're sorry or not. Because you're nth in our eyes. It doesnt make any difference whether you're dead or alive, because we dont need you as a friend, no matter how much you try to make it up to us, the memories of you in our hearts will forever be just ' that no life bitch ' , or maybe you guys wont even think about me. '

This feeling hurts. I really dont wanna talk about this anymore but I cant. I have been thinking these few days, what do I have to do to make it up to you guys. And I finally realise that at this point whereby I wanna do so much, I dont have the chance to anymore.

In the past, I always rejected meetings with you guys, I was late everytime, I gave excuses, I dont wanna be part of anything, I blame everyone for everything I did wrongly.
I demanded care and concern when I dont give anyone any.

But you guys never gave up on me. You guys tried so hard just to organise an outing with the 7 of us, just gathering, meeting up, do some shopping, talk about life.
But I never cherished. How I wish we can go out together again, just once.

I really dont wanna end our friendship in this manner, I'll regret forever. I cant just leave it like this and carry on with life. Why is it that whenever I finally know whats important, I have to lose it? I always thought that I need a boyfriend. I dont balance my life well at all.
I neglect friends to be with my boyfriend, I neglected Alize for Audition, a stupid game which changed me. And now that when I finally quit gaming, quit being so selfish and nosey, quit being self centred, quit being lifeless, quit being immature,
start to think about what I really need,
start to change myself,

everything has to be gone.

I know no one will believe that I've stopped gaming. But I've really quit. I havent logged in for a month already. These few days, 3 friends asked me to go to lan, I rejected all.
I gave up half of my life, my gaming friends, my second home, lan.
I dont even feel like stepping into lanshops now. I even regretted gaming.
I. Really. Changed.

Yes I have other friends, but do you think they can be compared to the 6 of you?
What do you guys think of about our friendshipwhen you think back?
For me, the happiest time when we last gathered was on Jeslynn's birthday, at Sembawang park, although I felt left out, but you know why its the happiest moment?

Because of the photograph YongJun took for us using Fionne's polaroid.
Everyone was so happy, fighting over who to stand in the middle, which side is prettier, and when the photo is out, everyone was so excited looking at the image appearing slowly.
The warmth can never be replaced.

If I knew that was the last time we gather together, I wouldnt have left earlier just to meet an unimportant friend. I should have accompanied Meiyin home.

Because of gaming, my life changed. But now when I'm back again, everything's changed. I really dont know what I should do.

How long are you guys gonna hate me for? Forever like this?
Did I really did something so wrong?

2009-05-19T12:13:00.004+08:00

I dont blame you at all. I deserve all these.
Just to tell you that, I still speak about you, as my best friend.
Even though we can only be friends for 8 years, and it ended up in this manner,
and we'll never contact again, but I understand how you feel.
Me, being the burden, the one you always puts in effort in and gets nothing back in the end,
says sorry to you.

I may not have true friends, I may not have a happy family, I may not have true love.
But your words really hurt.

You're the only one I contacted back when I was missing.
I did made an effort to ask you out, but you werent available. I understand you're at your boyfriend's place. So I waited for you to ask me out to slack instead.
But I guess you dont wanna see me anymore.

I didnt know I'm the worst person you've ever seen in your life. Until I read your blog.
Remember those times we worked together at Mac? The times you came up my place?
The things we used to talk non stop about? The compos we wrote? The leaf you gave, the cake you baked? The times we got caught smoking together? The times we skipped netball trainings?
The times we cried over guys? The times we sold icecream together? The times Mimi got stuck in the ricecooker when we have our dinner together?
And many...

All these, I'll never forget.
I hope that even though we wont be friends anymore, you'll still remember you had wonderful memories with me, long long ago.

I dont have many girlfriends, but I'm lucky to know the 6 of you during secondary school times.
And for the times I'm down, whenever I really needed someone there, you guys are there.

But I guess, the one I'm closest to is you bahs.
The one whom I shared everything with, the one whom I know the longest, who's always there.

Just wanna tell you, my mum's happy now. Hope you do well for O's and get good results for your mum to see, and make her happy (:

Thats the end to o0ur friendship. I'm sorry I caused so much hatred in you.
Last long with your love, stay happy forever.
From this moment onwards, you dont have to hurt me with your words anymore, you dont have to waste time blogging about how much I suck, because I know it all.
7-1=6 ( This is what you told me the 1st time we quarreled )
Now, its just the 6 of you. I still do read about your lives, and am very happy all of you are happy, really (:

Thats all, its all in the past now.

P.S.
And I'm saying these not to seek sympathy from you, to be friends back with you, want you to pity me cause I no friends. I just wanna say I appreciate everything you've done and I treasure those memories. Nothing le bahs, my last words. Takecare.

2009-05-12T21:31:00.001+08:00

I'm back home. Thats all.

2009-05-07T16:14:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday JiaMin (:

Firstly, I wanna apologise to Alize, Meiyin, Jeslynn, Jeanice, Jason, WeiHai, and all those who organised the BBQ. I'm sorry I didnt turn up yesterday, I didnt know you guys are giving me a surprise. After Alize told me that she's not gonna come out as she ton-ed the previous night, and that she's ran out of ideas, I thought there's no more celebration for me this year.

I felt very upset when I called my brother yesterday, everyone's so concerned about me. I called Alize, she told me alot of things, made me feel that its time to go home. Its been a long time since I last saw my parents. Heard they wanted to celebrate my birthday for me.

Thanks everyone, really.

And I've already discussed it with my friend, Don who felt equally bad as I missed the BBQ celebration they organised for me yesterday.
So he want me to tell you guys this:

I will re-organise a BBQ on June during the holidays, everything I pay.
Chalet also can.

You guys must come okay, if not I'll be guilty for the rest of my life.

And sorry hun, made you miss half your cheerleading lesson ):

I hope you guys had fun and ate full full even though the birthday girl didnt turn up.

Treat it as a gathering session for some catching up time? I'll make it up to you guys.

How did I celebrate my birthday..

I got a fruit cake, what's so special about it? We cut it at the bus stop at midnight.

With Jasper, Don, Ah hwa and WeiSheng.

We went to GrandLink to play pool, arcade and lan.

We went to Geylang's 126 to have dimsum. ($54 not worth it)

And I received the most expensive gift I've ever received from my friends...

A necklace from SK Jewellery. Its a heart with tiny diamonds.

I'll upload the picture of it when I get home.

I think I'm in luck recently, my hair's getting longer, I've lost weight and my pimples are gone!

Two words, song bo~ LOL.

Yesterday helped my friend sweep the whole house, the mum was like damn happy lo. Treated me coffee and cheese cake. Friend just made me throw my contact lense away ):

Cause I wore it for 5 days straight without taking it out, that day only went home for awhile, so didnt have the time to take my boxie box box with me.

But.. friend;'s buying a new pair of comtacts for me later on!

I'm now sitting infront of the com, with the SCV and aircon on, waiting for friend to come back from work as usual, I wonder what he'll buy for dinner tonight.

I'm like on a super powerful diet lo, I lost 6kg eh! Eating just one meal, dinner everyday.

Then at night cannot sleep, suddenly go downstairs walk the whole estate with friend.

And I've cut down on smoking already. One day 5 sticks (:

I know lah still alot right, dont gimme that face okay. Last time one day 10 sticks one lehs.

Tomorrow is Deric's birthday and the day Gary book out.

Time really flies, 14 days just past like that, its gonna be our 1st month soon.

Its been 5 days since I last contacted him.

My friend asked me, ' Do you really have to come to this state whereby no guys want you until you have to go be third party, the vixen, the boyfriend snatcher? '

Feel like slapping him? But its true, do I really worth that little?

Friend helped me take out my extensions yesterday with the pliers, omg la, they used GLUE you know!? Fucking cheena bitches, now my hair inside, the below part is STUCK WITH KNOTS. !@#$%^&*()

Mama fei lo seriously, Then you touch its hard hard one, the glue hardened. Yucks.

Luckily all inside, cannot see at all. Heng never extend the whole head ah, omg.

I asked my friend how? He said he'll bring me to the salon and ask the hairstylist to cut away those knots. Then I was like, huh? Wont have hole mehs? He said they will make it seem like its the latest hairstyle in town, the layers will cover it up dont worry.

wOmg NO! I wont risk my hair just because of some stupid knots.

Oh yeahs yesterday I wore this yellow shirt to sleep, I forgot what I laughed at my friend about, then my friend revenged by calling me ' You this piece of cheese! '

We laughed like fuck luh. Then when friend wanna change channel on the SCV, he said ' Eh Cheese, pass me the controller. '

LOOOL. Cheese.

I'm going home today. Friend asked me to get some clothes then move back here again but I guess I'll go home for a few days first, kinda miss my bro, dad, mum and my room.

Then go home see what my mum bought for my birthday.

Damn it lor Arsenal lost to ManU. I lost nevermind, made someone commit suicide lehs. Thats very bad. My friends are still discussing whether that guy is really an Arsenal die heart fan or he lost alot ofmoney in gambling, plus he's drunk, so used the excuse of Arsenal loss to jump down.

But no what, he did wear that Arsenal jersey before the match even started.

Bless him in heaven ):

Hey dude, I loved Arsenal too.

And yesterday Chelsea vs Barcelona. 1 - 1.

But still Chelsea won because its a champion league, and before that, chelsea already won a match. Idk how to explain but Chelsea won lah.

Barcelona leh, daughter got see not? :D

After the match there was a bit of a riot, one stupid blackie kept shouting not fair -.-

Btw thanks for all the lovely tags, I was very touched, really. (L)

And to all whom wished me happy birthday by text, sorry for not replying,
my phone's batt is totally flat for 5 days, later going home take my charger [:

P.S. Thanks for breaking the promise, bye forever.

I'll see you for one last time, to return all the things you gave to me.

I dont wanna remember you at all (:

You dont have to waste money celebrating my birthday anymore.

Heard you took half day off that day but couldnt find me. You werent even worried at all.

I dont even wanna know where you went. All these should stop.

I'm having a very good life now, if you want me to be happy, set me free.

Free from all those broken promises and the lies.

This will be the last time I shed tears for you. Takecare.

I cant believe I'm not meeting you anymore, we've been waiting so long for 8th and now...

I guess I cant take your lies anymore and I need my friends.

Now its just about work, friends, play.

Dont have to worry, my friends are taking very good care of me.

This year, although I didnt receive many gifts, although I didnt celebrate it with my sisters & their boyfriends, but.

I feel really touched. For the BBQ surprise they organised for me.

Remember to turn up on June, holidays should be free bahs?

Now I finally realise I have such wonderful friends & family.
Awww, touched die me.

* I just helped my friend mop and sweep the floor. The mum treated me green bean soup. Do housework got dessert oh. Kewl ~ :D
Going home in 4 hours time to take charger and more clothes.
Monday officially return home and to work [:

ASK ME OUT, REACH ME BY MY CELL ; 82255224.

2009-05-05T17:11:00.003+08:00

Nbcb, so now everyone thinks its my fault to be with him la?
Then you guys now wanna see us break then you'll be happy right?
I tell you, I fucking cannot take all these shits okay.
How many times already? Not once not twice but EVERYDAY.

Before you go in, you give me shits everyday.
Now them.

You, Gary Lerh's girlfriend very hard to be okay. Have to tolerate with all these.
I'm also a human leh, I dont deserve all these you know?
I can go off like this and find an even better guy, whom wont lie to me, whom wont spoil my retribution. And I suppose its meaningless being together if we cant get blessings from anyone.
Being together doesnt mean you love me, I love you, thats all.

It means going through all the shits together. Now that you're inside, and I'm left here with all these shits, do you think I can manage all of them alone?

Yes la, its my fault to go out with Qisheng to the movies, its my fault to find Weijie out for a heart to heart chat, but tell me. Who doesnt get crazy staying at home, look at her stupid retarded blog, everyday come in see new spammers. Go inside Audi let people say.

My patience has its limits. I never told you anything because I dont wanna add into your problems. I know you're having a tough time inside now.

But sorry for not answering your calls and smses and switching my phone off for 3 whole days.

Just let me cool down and think, okay?

Everyone's giving up hope on me ever since the day I be with you.
I hope you appreciate all these shits I'm going through because of you.

Okay enough about that. No matter what, I'll still wait for 8th May to come.

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Yesterday went to GrandLink at night, before that stayed at friend's house watch SCV until friend returns from work, ate the dinner the mum cooked for me. Damn full can, I keep stuffing myself with the plain rice cause I didnt wanna waste food, not very nice you see.
At home can la, but not some other people's house mahs. The mum damn cute, keep asking me stuffs when my friend's at work.

She kept asking if I wanna drink or eat anything, wanna watch tv, wanna on the lights, wanna on the fan/aircon not. Hahas. I'm blogging at my friend's place again, whom is at work now. So I'm alone in this room again, later need to help that idiot sweep the floor. Like 100 years never sweep lor, just finished clearing the rubbish in the room. Gonna download Audi then go watch SCV again :D

Then later that idiot comes back from work at 9.30pm, we're going to have dinner together. Song bo, say go eat good food leys, skarly the mum cook for me again. Hahahas.
Yesterday met a new friend, Lapool. Two words: Damn Skinny. LOL.

Hmms, the day before yesterday, where did I go? Oh, AngMoKio. Went to a friend's house with Jasper and Weisheng, watched many many shows, there was this show about 7 split personalities on SCV. Damn cool la omg, then there was CatWoman on channel 5 yesterday.
I'm beginning to love TV more than computer now. Omg.

Then in the morning, we went to have breakfast and everyone was damn tired, so I told them stupid jokes which they laughed very hard at. I think their beehoon nearly came out from their nostrils. Eeeew. Hahahas :D
I notice that I talk about stupid things when Im sleepy or when I just wake up.

Today when my friend gotta go to work, I woke up and said :
' Wei.. Never wish me happy birthday... ' in a very soft and muffled voice.
My friend was like, ' this girl talking in her sleep? today 5th may ley, LOL '
Sorry la, yesterday people keep wishing me happy birthday what, then I told them its tomorrow. Then just now woke up see the sun bright bright, thought its a brand new day already. LOL.

My friend's playing this stupid game called Mouse Hunt in FaceBook. Every 15 minutes go click at the horn to catch mouse. Then use real cash to buy cheese to hunt for rare mouse just to compete with their friend. LOL. Worse than Neopets can ._.

Hey I like my friend's speakers and monitor. I'm gonna get myself this Samsung monitor everyone's using when I get my first pay.

Oh ya before I go, I intro you guys a song called Jumpstyle by Dj Mert.
Confirm nice. Better than techno and trance.

And on my birthday, probably going for a dinner with my sisters. Cake, not sure yet.
8th getting a cake again. But dont know actual day want cake not /:
Going to KBOX with Jasper, Weisheng and Don. And maybe Swensens after that.
Weisheng suggest to go drinking ley, he's going army soon.
Then 8th going for movies, and Jevin didi said that he's gonna give me something! :D

P.S. Thanks for all the lovely bday wishes especially the mega(s) at midnight (:

2009-05-03T02:40:00.002+08:00

Year 2005, I received many birthday gifts from my ex bf, sisters, parents and schoolmates.

My mum bought me a cake, with KFC delivery.

Year 2006, I opened a small birthday party at my place with us, 7 sisters and hongchiong, minghong, jiahao, jeremyow. We watched One Missed Call, a horror jap movie Meiyin brought along [:

I could remember how they burn those tissue and throw them down from 8th floor, to the bus stop. I could also remember there was an abandoned teddy bear on the rooftop of the bus stop, Alize wanted to bring it home but it was too dirty and wet. And I could also remember Yuqi wore a purple tube top, I could also remember we joked about the noodles. Saying that it was on discount so my mum bought 2kg of it. We didnt even finish 1kg of it, we played with it in the end, and I got a memorable Creamy kiss from Alize, she wiped all the cream of the cake on her mouth and tried to kiss me. I also remembered that the cake was only 1/2 kg, my mum bought it.

I got a second cake from Yikee that year. He bought it and gave it to me at my doorstep, surprised me at the strike of 12, midnight. On the dot. I could still remember he wore a white polo tee and blue jersey shorts. And I wore a white off shoulder top that says glamorous in silver letters and a black skirt with small grey mickey head prints all over.

Year 2007, I told my ex boyfriend that I wanted to have a simple celebration, just a cake with my sisters, him and my brother under a block. He spent around $70 on that day, and I was very touched. But not all the girls made it to my birthday, Meiyin and Jeanice couldnt come. It was exam period and Jeanice couldnt come out at night, plus we were at Woodlands. We waited very long under Meiyin's block, until 11+ we decided to just cut the cake. I was disappointed but I understand.

Year 2008, I received damn many smses at 12. Jeanice dedicated a song for me on 98.7FM. The Click 5's Happy Birthday. Melissa was the first one to give me a gift, it was a very cute liquid hourglass from More Than Words. I didnt want a cake this time, so I told my mum that I'd prefer Pizza delivery instead, so we had hawaiian pizza from Pizza hut, and it took bloody long to come, the drumsticks were already cold when it arrived. So I swore to only have pizza at the restaurant itself.

I didnt have a boyfriend on that year's birthday. I was still waiting for my ex boyfriend, but he was sick, so he couldnt celebrate my birthday with me. I was really upset, I could remember.

And what was the best thing that year? Alize and Dennis asked me to go 173 to slack as per normal, so I went over with my bro, and when I reached, they kept smiling, I didnt know why. Then Jeslynn and Jason popped out from the back of the walls with a CAKE that ALIZE MADE! Its a.. LOL, lets just say we had difficulty in cutting it. She put alot of kuku stuffs inside, and when we finally cut it open, its HOLLOW! LOL. The rainbow rice toppings scattered everywhere, although it wasnt the most perfect cake in the world, but I swear I was very touched because it was her first time baking a cake, and its for my birthday! (:

I still keep those small notes she drew, that she pasted on toothpicks, that she poked on the cake,

and the fake leaf she gave me at Civics Centre's library on my sec 2 birthday. I know she didnt have money that time, but I was really glad she gave me that leaf. LOL.

All these little little memories, I'll always remember them.

2009-05-02T10:30:00.005+08:00

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.
The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents, beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born.

This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus.
She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped.
In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

2009-05-01T20:57:00.003+08:00

I'm already very tired of all these thats happening to me.
Yesterday Gary, then Deric and Ben. Now these.
The thing is I dont even know what I did wrong now.
If you guys came for Winnie's sake, I can understand.
But do you think that by spamming my board will solve any misconclusions btwn us?

If it really is because of Winnie, I say sorry here. But do you think its really entire my fault?
I didnt know he had a girlfriend for 2 years in the first place.
Everytime when I thought I knew about everything, I was proved wrong.
Days by days I get to know more and more lies from him.
I know Winnie's feeling very miserable. But am I very happy right now?
Everytime I read her post, I cry. Not because I pity her. Not because she's pathetic.
But its because I've been in her shoes before, I've felt like that before,

and worst of all, I'm part of the reason making her feel miserable now.
But all I want is just to love and be loved, is that wrong?
Maybe you guys wont understand cause you're lucky to find a faithful guy, who doesnt have any complicated history, whom you can spend the rest of your life blissfully with.

But I cant. Since the day I know him, I already know that I have to go through alot of shits with this guy, and the storm might not be over so soon.
Because both of us have complicated histories, his was much more serious than mine tho.
But till the day when I discover his lies, I already dont have a choice.

What can I do? Anything I do wont do anyone any good. Every decision I make will hurt either one of us. There're no win-win situations for the 3 of us.
I can only blame myself for falling in love with the wrong person.
Yes, go ahead and say ' Serve you right ' or ' told you so '. It doesnt matter anymore.

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Went to watch 17 Again with laoda. It was a very complete and touching story. Hilarious at some parts too. After that went to Kovan, ton-ed and went home.

2009-04-29T12:19:00.002+08:00

I finally had the courage to read your archives. Just 2 months of it, its enough to make my eyeballs fall out. Both of you are meant to be, I'm just a nobody.
Treat it as he's just playing outside out of boredom & that he'll come to his senses again.
I know you'll forgive him.

He hasnt made his final decision. We'll only find out the one he wants to be with forever, when I break off with him. My mentality is that he'll return to you just like always. I know you have the same thinking too. I dont want you to suffer in silence anymore.

I dont need him as much as you do.
I cant treat him better than you do.
I cant love him as tenderly as you could.
I cant replace your position,
you're his actual girlfriend.
You two belonged together, even his parents agreed to your marriage with him.
His mum dont even know about me, and I never wanted her to.
Because in her heart, she has only one daughter-in-law,
Gary can only have one girlfriend,
Stitchy baby only have a mummy & a daddy.

Both of you like babies, but I dont. I swore I'll never give birth to one.
You guys looked forward to marriage, but I dont.
I never thought of getting married at such a young age,
I never wanted to commit myself to a guy now,
there're too many things I havent complete,
there're dreams I'd wanna work towards to,
there're goals in life to achieve.

I promised everyone that if he lies to me again, I'll walk off and wont turn back ever again.
He lied to me again. Tell me what can I do other than crying?
God warned me when I was smoking alone yesterday outside Kovan lan shop,
God told me indirectly that I cant be with this guy anymore,
he dont belong to me, he'll leave me someday.
He's not truthful to himself, to me, to his parents, to everyone.
So what makes me think that he will love me his entire life, till he dies?
What can he use to guarantee to support me in the future?
He cant give me anything. He'll only bring sorrows and tears into my life.

God approached me after I stroke a black cat. His eyes were yellowish-green. I could still remember vividly. It was just me and the cat. But I heard someone talking to me, in my heart. I cried after the mysterious voice's gone. I never cried for nothing.
But God, I loved him, but I also know that the right thing to do is to disappear from their lives. Let them get back to the day I hadnt appear. Everything will be back to the days before 11o4o9. They can start all over again.

I know it hurts but I dont have a choice.
Tell you a good news, you'll be overjoyed. He'll be out for a month. An entire month.
He's gonna get a month's MC because of his injured leg.

You said you missed out alot, and that you wanted his attention, go on, use this one month to patch things up, to spend your days happily just like in the past (:
After so many times, you two can be back together, its fate isnt it? So cherish it well.
Hold his hand tight this time round, dont let him slip ever again.
I bless you two in whatever you do.

But can you promise me something? Give me time, I cant explain all these to him on phone, difficult plus no time. And he told me before, life inside camp's already very tough, he hoped we'd stop creating unneccessary troubles for him outside. He's already very vexed.
Give me time, I promise I'll break the news to him.

At least, let me celebrate my birthday with him for once.

2009-04-28T15:06:00.010+08:00

Forgot to put this up, Gary wanted me to SS that.

They wanted me to take this, said I looked bitchy.
I think I looked poisoned -.-

Aiya, cut his face. So we took another one.

Hair long long, piercing many many.
Go army = All gone. HAHAHA.

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When I read the girls' blogs, I envy them so much, to be able to study in Polytechnics.
Life seem so fun in Poly. Hahas.
Anyway it's so amazing, both my primary school friends are in the same class as me in ITE.
Fatin and Junxiang. They both look the same I tell you. And they totally cant recognise me.
Until Fatin approached me, she's like, have I seen you before?

Then I went, Fatin! You forget me alr? Last time primary school with you, lily & eis one~
Hahas, and she gave me a big bear hug.
Junxiang came to talk to me during IT lesson. The Business thingy, need to do cover page for our files mahs, the teacher went around to look at our work. I'm the only one she actually stopped to admire, then she asked ' May I know which sec school did this lady came from? ' When I told her Woodlands Ring sec, she gave me that Wow look.

I didnt know WRSS has such a good reputation. Hahas. And she told me Bishan is a good campus, I've came to a right one. Then she continued to ask how many of us could actually enter Poly, but chose Bishan as a first choice instead.
Maybe I should disclose this secret, I actually went to appeal for RP and I got the letter from them saying that I qualify for certain courses. But I threw it away because my mum wanted me to appeal, but I lied to her that I couldnt get it. And that I didnt get any news from RP.

My thinking was, enter a good ITE than a lousy Poly. But RP dont sound at all lousy to me now. Bishan ITE is. Not the people, not the teachers, but the school itself, how they manage everything. I dont like the way they do things. And anyway I only made like a few friends? All of them had their own group of friends. I didnt wanna join in and stick to them like glue. Its like, what if they dont like me but never told me? Then everytime they'll be like, eh she come alr, faster faster siam. Sians leh, she very fan sia. Lols.

But I got to hang out with the 2 coolest girls in my class. Kelly and Lynn (:
Lynn is the prettiest in class. With short rebonded hair and bangs, big eyes and red cheeks.
She looked so sweet. Okay, enough about school life. Its officially over for me.

I agree I should step out of my fairytale fantasy, I'll be looking for a job tomorrow.
Gary wants me to work at Kovan, but they've already arranged their schedules and discussed about the work stuffs among themselves, I dont want like just bcus I wanna work then they all re-arrange everything, I dont want they say Gary's girlfriend like Queen like that.

I want to depend on myself to look for a job. I know your pay's more than what GrandLink can offer me. But what I want is not a high pay. Is a stable job I'll be happy working in, and of course enough for me to do some savings for further studies next time.
My aunt has agreed to support me financially during that one month when I havent get my pay. Means when I go to work, my transport & food all she pay.
Plus I'm not moving out already, I think its stupid to move out just because I quarrel with my parents. My dad and I are okay already. My mum's still angry at me for not wanting to study. I dont blame her luhs, she paid $400+ to ITE, I study 2 days then quit.

I think that working in a lan shop is not really a good idea now. I mean, I cant be working in a lan shop forever right. Maybe going down town to sell clothes, saw this advertisement in the newspaper, Fareast shopping centre's hiring full time shop assistant, pay $1000+ per month. But they didnt mention sell what luhs. But most probably clothes/shoes.
Tomorrow go interview bahs.

Oh, I suddenly miss the times Alize and I worked at Macdonalds together.
Jiahao also. Hahas (: It was so fun back then... Why do people have to grow up?

I noticed that I'm like spamming my own tagboard, very messy yeah.
So I'll reply here instead?

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kevin bro : You say one uh, find one day drive me go St James play leyyyy. Now I never study alr, very free :D I havent go St James before. Suaku die me. Hahas! So as a bro, you must bring sis out to play okay? I dont understand ley, you working why will have cca? Ehh bro, if I wanna learn Piano, how much will you charge me?

meiyin ♥ : You act bitchy fail luh, hahahas. The video in your blog I mean. You in Drama club or something? And I miss you too (: We live so near each other, during your Poly holidays can ask us out also uh ^^v

Augustin : Thanks bro, but its not really her fault. Love is a complicated thing luh, I hope you last long with Zhenyi, and good luck to some people yeah? Phone bill $80 x;
Dont care mummy la, you also know her pattern one, wait until she go singing, got mood liaos then talk to her nicely. And thanks for letting me eat one of your 1st month present :P

jeremyow : Thanks for the advice, I've thought it through. I'm not moving out anymore. But I'm still quitting school, ITE is crap luh. I did think about my future, thats why I'm planning to work instead, hope to earn enough to get me through Private school, get a private diploma or something. All the best to you in Poly, study hard (:
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2009-04-27T04:45:00.002+08:00

You know what? I wanna study, but not in that sucky ITE.
I wanna take private Diploma.
I need to move out, because I've reached my limit.
I really cant live under one roof with my family anymore.

Anyway, Weikang's the only one who supported my decision of quitting school.
Because his highest qualification was also only an O level cert, but he's a designer now.
Weijie was so cute, he was like, WHY DONT WANT STUDY?? Okay la good la, earn money. LOL. Study so much also no use. No heart study in the end also fail. Waste time.

Laoda's meeting me on Tuesday for a movie, the what 17 uh. Felt so heartwarming when talking to Laoda just now. I finally realised I've missed out alot. I spent too much time on my always-thought-could-last-long-relationships.
I guess if I wasn't tired, Laoda and I could talk forever. Miss him like hell.

Oh, I went to Kovan yesterday, made friends with Wawa, Zhuzhu, Janice, Milk, Berlyn and Jess (:
Deric, Poon, Alvin, Junjie, Ah Ben, Johnson, Nigel and Jiejie were there too.
Simon kor was so sweet to call back to ask whether I wanna eat or not.
And he sat down to chat with me about Gary and I. I didnt want him to worry so much, so I only briefly explained to him, then went out to smoke. Say so much also no use bahs, it all depends on Gary now. Hope he'll finally know how to think someday.

Anyway I'm very touched that the Jeslynn, Meiyin and Alize still care for me.
Although all of us are going separate ways in life now, I hope that all of you will be happy in whatever you do (:
I can see that all of you are very happy with your new life in Poly right now.
Although I dont contact you guys, but I do read your blogs, and talk about y'all.
Make sure you guys takecare of yourselves, and study hard, dont be like me.

Short post for today, gonna go do some plannings now.
I cant believe I'm going to provide for myself soon.
I'm not really independent, hope I'll finally grow up, lols.

So Tuesday after signing the papers, I'll go look for a full time job, and when I saved enough money, I'll rent a room near my workplace, move out and live there.
Omg, I have so many things to bring along with me. I wonder if I can sleep at a unfamiliar place ): I'll miss my bedbed. I think I can't bring girlgirl along, too big already. Sad.
Still need to get my passport, IC, birthcert, atm card, bank book, everything -.-
So troublesome.

I'm still thinking what type of job I want. I kinda prefer working 2 jobs.
One illegal and one legal. My friend's introducing me to selling contraband cigarettes.
Its quite a nice idea to me, since I smoke contraband cigarettes also.
And definitely easy money.

Legal one, maybe shop assistant? Sell those girly stuffs. Or best is lan shop. Working in lan shop has been my dream since long ago. Play com earn money, very slack also. And got many many friends accompany you, wont feel bored. Still can smoke as and when you like.

Oh ya, one of my friend told me that you can buy fake cert nowadays. Only $1200.
If you have the skills, they wont suspect you at all. You just show them once at the interview and you can keep it with you until you die.

Life is so plastic.

2009-04-25T00:54:00.005+08:00

This time, this boyfriend is really nothing like the others.
I know very well what I'm doing and I hope to get blessings from everyone.
Although I know I may sound stupid if I told you guys my plans.
But I finally understood what I really want.

Dreams and ambitions, I always thought that studying hard and earning big bucks in the future can make me happy. I wanna drive a sports car, I wanna live in a condo.
But all I want now is to be with my boyfriend forever.

I never liked meeting guys everyday. I never had this feeling before.
I can really give up everything to be with him.
Because I can see the effort he put in this relationship.
We went through alot in just this short period of time.

I once thought to myself, Who am I to think that he'll give a 2 year girlfriend up for me, a girl whom he just known for days? I'm not pretty, I'm not good in studies, I'm not rich like other girls, I'm not as gentle, I'm not as understanding, and I didnt do anything to make you like me. So what makes me think that I have the ability to make you fall in love with me, to bear the kinda feeling you've never had for other girls before?

But that night before you sent me home, at Kovan, when we sat on the stairs, you told me that you've been looking for this kinda feeling but no one had it in them until you met me. You too, gave me that kinda feeling, when you didnt even do anything. You just be yourself.
You always wanted to know why I chose you over the others. At first, it was only that special feeling, I felt comfortable being around you.

But the feelings grew. You're becoming sweeter and sweeter, you put in so much effort in our relationship, I couldnt help it but did just the same.
I never talked about marriage seriously, especially not with a guy I just known for days.
But I really thought of marrying you.

You may be shocked to see all these. Because I told you before, I'm not good in expressing myself. Unless I cry or laugh out loud. But all these was how I felt when I'm with you.
I just didnt show them out. I wanted to write a diary, but I didnt know where to start. Too much to say. Hahas.

Anyway,

I've decided to stop schooling to go work instead. Yes, I'm very clear thats what I want. I wanna be happy everyday, find meaning in this life. Not the old me, just do what others want me to do. Even if not happy also nevermind, as long as its right.

All I want is to work now, rent a room outside, somewhere near my working place. I found one at Yishun, with free food, full furnishing and internet for $200 per month. Good right. Then clothes all that just throw inside the washing machine, no need wash myself. Other housework I can do luh. Lols. Dont ask me wash clothes can liaos.

Then I'll move out, live there. Work from Monday to Friday. Then when dear book out every weekend, pei him until he book in again. I know O lvl cert is nothing to this society, but at least I can earn a living. I think a thousand per month is enough for me to survive, even enough for me to buy the things I like (:
Then when dear ORD after 2 years, we'll engage, then hopefully we can earn enough to buy a small house together. Even if its 1 room flat. I always find that housewife is a stupid job.

But now I find that its a blessing to live together, go market buy food together, cook together ( okay, you cook for me, you know I can't cook right LOL )
Then feed each other, sleep together ( I meant just plainly sleeping together ), watch tv together, weekends go out together, help you massage when you come back from work.
But guess you'll become fitter when you finished NS bahs. Dont need massage le. Hahas.
Imagine your back itchy, you ask your bunk mate help you scratch. LOL.

All of us are left with 3 more years to live. So why not spend it happily?
Do whatever you wanna do. Even if its wrong, just go for it if thats what you really want.
I know I wont regret.

Dear just went to sleep, his phone no batt, so he used his bunk mate's phone to call me. Miss each other until we cry. Its like, when he say ' Dear, wo hen xiang ni.. Wo xiang baobao ni '
Walau, that sentence power pack, ji tao zua waterfall man. LOL.
He find it very amazing too, just 10 days of being together, the feeling's already so strong, the memories so much, like 1 year like that.

I've still got photos of us in my phone, but there's problem with my blogger. Only can upload one by one. Next post show you all dear botak de photo ;p

(c) This love is here to stay, 1:39am.

2009-04-24T14:19:00.002+08:00

Dear, being able to meet you is the happiest thing that can ever happen to me this lifetime.
Just 9 days, the memories are really alot. I wonder how I'm gonna spend a day without you.
We met at Kovan, we were enemies before that, and when you first saw me, you kept looking at me. You thought I was familiar, and you told your friend that you want to woo me. He told you its impossible as I have a boyfriend that time.

The next day, I was stuck at AngMoKio as they gave me the wrong detail of the last bus' timing. You were at Ice, I called and told you to tell my ex boyfriend that I'm not going down to look for them already, but you told me to cab down to Ice. I didnt suspect anything as paying the cab fare for a girl is normal.

I didnt even know you liked me. I didnt know I liked you too. But slowly, the feelings grew.
You kept smiling at me when we're at Ice, I thought you're just being friendly. You sang the song ' Wei Yi' and people around kept disturbing you and me, asking you to look at me when you sing.

After that, we headed off to Kovan in Simon korkor's car, and that was the first day I got to see Nigel, your nephew. Immediately, I took a liking to your family. Whenever I'm with you all, I feel a sense of warmth, which I can no longer feel in my family.

In the morning, I accompanied you and Deric take the 2 hrs bus back to Woodlands. And before that, you asked me out to have breakfast. I didnt wanna eat anything, so you got me Teh Bing. Hahas, teh bing again and again. From that day onwards, everytime you wanna drink something, and when I say I dont wanna drink, you'll order teh bing for me.

You sms-ed me that night, you told me to text you when I reach home, but I didnt. Then you sent another sms, asking if I was asleep. Again, I ignored the sms. The third time in the morning, on my first day of school, you sent me a good morning message. I forgot what I replied, but I finally did. I know you smiled. You couldnt believe I'd actually reply you.

I keep thinking why was it that I feel affected by your words and every little actions you make. I kept telling myself, no I cant possibly like this guy. I always thought you're a jerk. Just finding flings around, play play for awhile then throw them aside. I felt irritated by your smses but decided to play along, entertain you. Those lovey dovey messages, I never thought they meant anything. I know its not from the bottom of your heart, so everytime you send me those smses, I'd ask ' How many girls have you told this to? ' And when you said you missed me, I'd reply, ' Ya. Today you miss me alot. Monday miss Mandy, tuesday miss Wendy, Wednesday miss Esther, Thursday miss Felicia. '

Hahas. And you'll always say, no la, monday to sunday all Jiamin. Even public holidays. Although I find it very crappish, but you always made me smile with those silly texts.
On the 2nd day of school, Poon called me and I chatted with him while I was on my way to school. I told Poon about you. Then he was like, ' I thought he has a girlfriend for 2 years already? ' Immediately, my heart sank. I was so at lost I didnt even feel like going school anymore. I just stood there and tried to pretend everything was an illusion a minute ago, and that I didnt hear anything. But I couldnt. It's a fact. I suddenly remembered he had a girlfriend for 2 years. Someone told me long long long ago.

All I did was call him. I didnt wanna text him cause I wanna know if he's lying.
Me: Hello?
Him: Hello?
Me: Can I ask you a question?
Him: Ya?
Me: You got girlfriend de mahs? Just yes or no.
Him: Yes.
Me: Okay nothing le. Byebye.

I felt like slapping you at that point of time. But when I stop to think, eh? Not your fault what, I also never ask you whether you got girlfriend or not. So is I never ask mahs, you never lie to me what. Then your long long texts came, and I didnt reply. I was sobbing hard in the school toilet. Then you called me and told me everything I needed to know.
About you and her. About me and you.

And that day, I became your girlfriend.
At first I was hesitant about it, but at night, when I meet you up at AngMoKio for dinner, I knew my decision was right. We have alot in common. You dote on stufftoy like I do. You even talk to them, although I'm alot crazier. Lols. But you never thought I was childish. You even played along with me (:

And thanks for the chocolate chip cookies icecream you treated me that night.

Everytime you intro me to people I didnt know, you always are so proud to call me your girlfriend. Its like you wanna tell the whole world that we're together.
Everyday we meet up. Everyday was happy. Everyday was meaningful & sweet.

Okay, I cried 4 times when we're together.

Once was at Kovan, when your sister-in-law warned me to be careful and not get too serious in this r/s. I cried not because I was upset. I cried because I was touched. The words you said that night really melted my heart. You told me that if you wanted to play me, you'd have done so long ago, and you threw those things away. And I thought to myself, everything makes sense after all. But I still have to be on my guard as guys cant really be trusted from my experience.

Second time was when we were sleeping at your place, your ex girlfriend came up and made a din. Believe it or not, I never wanted you to break up with her. But before that day, when we were at KG pub, with Toon, the day when Melody is born ( the stufftoy you bought for me at the thai disco, when I was drunk ) you told me that she broke off with you.
You said she said you didnt care about her, and she wanted to break off, so you told her that you had a girlfriend now.

I'm upset not because I'm jealous. I'm upset not because you lied to me. I'm upset because I thought the Gary I love, knows how to think. But you showed me what kind of a person you are that day at your place. You told me you dont hit girls. But you hit her. I was so mad at you. I told you that its not her fault, she then is your real girlfriend, not me. If I'm her, I will also be angry. Imagine your boyfriend cheats on you, and you see them together.
But you told me that you two already broke off that night. And you hit her cause she chopped the stitch's head away. You told me you never did anything more than __ with her, but that day she said that you ___ her everytime. And you told me that you bought the 3 stufftoys, so I hugged them, but ended up she was the one who bought them. You even took down the photos in the photoframe when I went up your house.

I understand how she feels. But do you understand how I feel when she told me to get the facts right next time before getting hurt like now? And how I felt when she showed me the photos of you and her since 2 years ago?

All I could do was run away. Away from you, your house, and your lies.

I pressed the lift, you rushed out to stop me, but you fell down, and the lift went down, with me alone, I called Simon korkor, as I didnt know who to tell this to. He told me his heart wrenched when he heard me cry. He told me to make a decision.
I hated you for being so greedy, wanting two girls to stay with you. You smsed me while I walked home from your place. You wanted to explain, so I asked you to meet me at my place at night. You came over at 8, and we sat at the shelter near the road. Somethings are too confidential to be said here.

But you told me that when I ran off, you were so mad at her you shouted at her, and when you were talking to her, all your mind was wanting to rush out to look for me.
And one by one, I asked why you lied, you explained all of them to me. But I didnt know what was true and fake anymore. So I took Melody out from my bagbag, and returned her to you. I could see his tear was gonna drip, but he held back and used Melody to talk to me.

He used Melody and said ' Mama, forgive papa hao ma? I want to stay with you, dont give me away. ' And he pushed Melody to me. I finally turned around to look at Melody, I immediately forgived him, and took Melody back (:
Then we bus-ed down to Yishun. Songka. I was like, ' you ask me wear nice nice just to go songka? -.- ' Then he laughed, and explained that he thought I'd break off with him just now, so he wanted to bring me to somewhere, be his girlfriend for the last night, so asked me to wear nice nice. I wore a purple dress with a black cardigan. Jevin thought I went clubbing LOL.

I only know that we spend everyday together. And time flies when we're together. He never leaves me out of his life. He wanted me to be part of his life, in everything he do. He intro me to everyone of his friends, he brought me to places he always goes to, he told me things I shouldnt know, he brought me to drinking places because he dont want me to think that he'd anyhow touch girls or drugs when I'm not with him. Nice boyfriend yeah? (:

Yesterday was a farewell dinner for my my Dear. Almost all the SiaoDinqDonq members came over Kovan to see dear before he goes in to serve NS. I could see that dear was very happy, although we only had porridge, but he was very very happy to see that everyone made an effort to come, and it felt so warm when everyone squeezed together until there was no space for some of them. Its like one big family (:

I know that Dear's wish is to see the lan full of SDD members on the opening. I promise I'll go down tomorrow, on the opening, to represent dear as he isnt able to make it. Yesterday I accompanied dear to cut botak at 888. The action still ask uncle to cut style style for him, the side burn still want sharp sharp. LOL.
This silly dear keeps thinking that people will snatch me away when he's in camp.
Okay, I admit in these 9 days of us being together, there were guys who took my number, who smsed me, who called me. But I showed you everything. And I told all of them that I have a boyfriend. Although I gave them my number. Bcos I see no harm in making friends.
I'm very happy that Dear understand, and gave me the freedom.

The happiest thing was that Dear even felt proud of himself when guys took my number. He told me that its because it shows that He, Ahmao, got good taste, got such a pretty girlfriend, people should be jealous that I choose him over them. Hahas x;

I dont understand. That day his ex girlfriend saw us together at Kovan after the incident at his place, but she didnt say anything. But why was it that yesterday... She kept asking whether I was with him? When we're at dear's sister's place, his phone kept ringing, I asked him who was it. And he said Winnie. I only Orh. I didnt wanna throw my temper at him, and spoil our last day being together before he goes serve NS. If not I cant see him for 2 weeks, I sure regret. I want everything to be perfect that day. He said those smses were nothing much. So I didnt think much too. As usual, we joked around, until in the cab..

His phone rang again, and this time round I turned around to see. I mean, since its nothing much, why cannot see right? Then the sms went ' Is that girl with you? Please answer me honestly, I dont wanna be treated this way ): '
Something like that la. Cut short abit. Infront I forget alr. Anyway ' that girl ' is refering to me. Then I asked him, this is called nothing much?

Then I walked very fast when we alighted from the cab. Didnt wanna talk to him. So went inside to listen to Johnson and Demdem discuss about the CybercafePro client thingy. Then he smsed me, said sorry and I love you all that. So I replied him, saying that I want to talk to him. Then he asked me to come out to talk. I went out, and again, he explained every single thing I needed to know. Then we went in to play Audition together, thinking everything's okay again. But no.

Winnie pm-ed me suddenly, with her noob account I guess. She said she's waiting for Gary, 2 weeks later book out, he promise that she'll be the first one he meets and that he'll give her an answer about their r/s. He even told her that both side he also never choose.
And he hid the fact from her that I was with him that day. You tell me, na li bu hui dulan?
I alt tab and went to the toilet straight. I ji tao squat down and cry, bth alr. I dont wanna cry infront of so many people. Plus got toilet roll, can wipe my tears LOL.

I came out after awhile, cause I find myself stupid, cry over such an idiot, who lied to me time and again. I felt so sick of him I wanted to go home, I dont care what last day farewell shyt alr. So I stood up and opened the door, wiped my tears, and saw him standing at the door. I ignored him and tried to go out, but he blocked me. He kept holding me, trying to keep me calmed. So I stood there, listened to what he has got to say this time.
He explained and said he'll settle it himself.

Then I said something like ' I everytime trust that you'll tell her. In the end ley? You never do nice nice for me to see. You want to play then one shot give me all can or not? Dont abit abit can? I very xingku alr luh. I told you before, I never wanted you to break up with her, if you treat me as a fling all along, and the only one you'll be with is her, then go ahead and find her back. I wont blame you. But dont keep telling me you love me, all you want is me, then behind me ask her to wait for you also.
Like this you hurt two girls you know? You got think of how I feel mahs? I can dont mind anything, but I dont want you to lie to me. '

Then he shouted at me for the 2nd time. First time was over a stupid egg -.-
Second time was because I kept being stubborn, dont want to understand his situation. I know that he also very nan zuo ren actually. I finally understood everything. But I still didnt believed him entirely, so I demanded that I wanna ask Winnie out, we three talk face to face. He said okay at first. But in the end he told me the reason why he did all that, its because he dont wanna let us meet. I could see what his plannings were, and that I trust that he'll carry them out. And I finally trusted him when he told me to understand him, all he wants is me, not her. Idk why but everytime he held my hands and look me in the eyes, I just soften.

Yesterday, dear told me that he wanna go out buy something. He still sms-ed to ask ginn whether I like stufftoy dog or not. And he chose very long, couldnt find hello kitty in mini toon. In the end he got me a stufftoy dog, super duper very very cuteeeee. White colour de. Called Xiaobai. LOL. Melody got friend le. Die, everyone sure siam me when I come. Got Melody alr noisy enough, now come one Xiaobai. Hahahas x;
And he got me a hellokitty lipgloss with a hellokitty hp strap [:
I really was touched. Thanks Dear. Although I didnt show how happy I was, but when you gave me the gifts, and when everyone said ' waaa so sweeet ' and you first time buy things for girls, I really was very happy. I didnt know that Gary Lerh would buy soft toys for a girl. Somemore choose so long until people thought you wanna steal their things. LOL.

I felt damn guilty for making you upset yesterday, our last day being together before you go in. So after we went 555, talked to Simon kor and played with Melody and Xiaobai, when we were waiting for a cab to go home, I suddenly
' Dear '
Then he ' Huh? '
' Sorry eh, today your last day but just now quarrel with you, make you sad. '
Then he said ' Nvm luh '
Then I smiled.
Then he kissed me x;

Then the 4th time I cry was in the cab, when dear keep telling me to takecare of myself, rmb to eat and drink alot of water, and alot alot, my tears auto drip down. Suddenly heart very sour. Then he wiped my tears away. We kept talking and talking, afraid that we wont get to talk to each other anymore. At that point of time, all I wish was that time will stand still, the cab will go on forever, and we wont leave each other.

But its reality, of course. Before getting down the cab, I blurted the ' Wo bu she de ni ' out. Cannot take it already, LOL. Then the tears started to flow again.

So total, I cried 4 times when I'm with him.
Happy and sad, both got.
But of course, happy times outcast the sad times (:

I just wanna say,
Dear, thanks for always always being there for me.
Thanks for giving in to me everytime I throw little girl temper.
I know you dont give in to girls de, cos you got bad temper.
But it seems like I'm always the one angry at you,
and you'll come cheer me up, make me smile (:
Sorry for the times I broke your heart.
Sorry for not putting myself in your shoes sometimes.
Sorry for being so stubborn, only wanna do things my way.
Sorry for making you jealous.

Thanks for being so good to me.
Thanks for giving me alot of 1st(s).
Thanks for feeding me like a little girl, although you always thought that you dont see the need to feed people.

Thanks for missing me so much. He already sent like 10 messages and called me like 4 times since this morning, he take ferry also sms me, eating also call me, watch people cut botak also call me. Go toilet change try uniform also sms me. Touched (':

I love Gary Lerh Yit Hao, I wanna marry him before shi jie mo ri on 21st oct 2012.
I love Melody and Xiaobai too.
And and, I love all SDD members :D

Dear, book out de shi hou, I will be the one to wait at the tekkong gate there, with Melody and Xiaobai. Then bring you go drink your favourite Coke Zero! Hahas!
You dont boxim hor, better write letter out ar, if not other people's girlfriend have, I dont have, I will cry one ar. LOL x;

Waiting for you to book out on 8th May, although you cant get to celebrate my bday, but I hope that when you book out, the first thing we do is to get married in Audi.
And I want to get married at Kovan, with you bside me, hees.
But dear say he wanna go unban his main when he book out, then chiong to worldstar then use that to marry me, so that people will say wa, you marry worldstar ley. LOL.

I promise to go back to school on Monday. I promise to takecare of myself.
I promise to look after SDD for you. I promise to bring alot of people to Kovan on opening.
I promise to eat and drink alot of water everyday.
I promise to hug Xiaobai and Melody when I sleep.
I promise to smoke lesser.
I promise to only sms and call you, and no others.

I promise to love you now, and forever.
I promise to stay loyal to you until you ORD.
Then when your hair grow long long again, we can get married.
Not that I mind, is you wont like to take marriage photos with botak head right. Hahas.

This post is only meant for you to read.
It may seem disgusting to the others but my dear like jiu hao [:

(c) 15o4o9 , never-ending story *

2009-04-14T19:10:00.007+08:00

You said you liked Lady Gaga, this song's for you.
I guess,
I'll just continue to be the Nobody, cheering him up and supporting him all the way.
Look, everyone's concerned about you.

When I saw that tag, I knew my decision was right.
It just takes time, for him to forget me.
It'll all be over,
he'll find someone new,
and start all over again.
He'll be happy again (:

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Kim daughter's getting married with Racist tomorrow. So happy for her, found such a good and cute (she kept saying so) couple. Lols! And daughter, I saw her blog. I finally know why you're so mad. And your descriptions arent wrong. She's really.. pretty & nice (:

How was my first day of school? Lemme see..
Had orientation for the first two days, and what did I do?

1st day ; Didnt make any friends in class, didnt wanted to sit alone during lunch break, so slept in class alone for 2 hours. Benjamin came up to find me, but he left after he went to join his classmates. I lost my class as they assembled straight from the canteen, and headed off to somewhere else to play games. What ice breaking & sit in a circle, the clapping games.

Hello? How old alr? ITE ley, not Kindergarten -.-

Was like so sad luh, I slept in class alone already sad enough, another class came into our classroom, so I had to leave. I went to the toilet then, stayed there SMS, read book, listened to radio until everyone's being dismissed.

All I heard from outside was the leaders shouting ' BISHAN BISHAN OEI~ ' then they shouted ' SUP SUP OEI~ '
And they checked class by class to see if anyone's missing.
Then suddenly, ' BISHAN, you can go home now! '
' Yayyyyy! GO HOME! '

I was like, what the hell? They didnt even notice my existence -.-
So Ben called me and said can come out already.
Then we walked home together. And yeah, I went to school with him.

That was how I spent the 1st day of school. Learnt some lame cheers under the hot sun.
Anyway my school really has MANY handsome guys and pretty girls. Many.

Amazing thing is that we can dye our hair, we can paint our nails, we need not tie our hair, we can alter our skirts fcuking short, we can wear our uniform however we want, tuck out tuck in/cut away LOL, you can wear polo tee, pe shirt, and 3 different types of formal tops, we can wear coloured contacts, we can wear alot alot of ear studs, we can pierce anywhere we like, we can put shiny nosestuds and show off the diamond under the sun, like,
' Look, I'm an ah pu nehneh, shiiing (diamond) '

LOL. Wtf? Okay nevermind, ignore me. Hasnt been sane these days.
Anyway we can scold vulgarities, we can talk in singlish, we can be rude. We can be barbarians. We can talk on the phone in class, we can sms, we can listen to MP3, I think you bring headphones also can uh. LOL.
Take ear muffs put in your ears, the teacher sure angry until.. hit the roof ah.

My class ar, got 2 handsome chinese, 2 pretty chinese. The two girls looked like twins.
Same hair length, same bangs, same bag, same skirt length, same make up, same figure.
Only different hair colour. One black one brown.

I saw Adrian Granddaddy in school yesterday, dont know how he managed to make so many friends when he skipped 7 months of school, including Orientation. Lols.
Siala, Friday never early release siol. Got PE until 3.30pm siol. Can die siol.

Who else is in Bishan ITE reading my blog now? Tag me the earliest release time for Friday.
I wanna sneak out with those early release one x;
Fcuk sia, everyday study until so late. PE on friday last period somemore.

Anyway today's the second day of school and I skipped school. Went Bedok.
After that, went to CWP to meet Ric erzi and that zhutou Mao. I fucking dont like his name siol, Gary Lerh. I dont like the Gary. All the Gary(s) are players. Fuck man.
Nvm we call him LerhLerh. HAHAHA. Nono, Zhutou Mao better.
Since he calls me Chou Min.
._.

I went to buy contacts after they head to AMK. Okay this is funny.
I couldnt see mahs, so I went into this shop selling fishing equipment.
I thought it was an optical shop.
I asked the lady at the counter, ' Erm excuse me, may I know if you sell contact lenses? '
They both HUH?! Very loud. LOLOL.
Then I looked around, and continued ' Err.. Contact lense you know? The one you wear when you can't see. '
They were like, ' Sorry Miss... ' Havent finish their sentence,
I looked up and saw fishing rods.
I dashed out of the shop, feeling so fcuking embarrassed and stupid.
Then laughed out loud at myself, messaged Mao to tell him what I did.

Hahahahas. What a cock eye girl. Next time call wrong husband sure die man. LOL.

Anyway I saw Melissa and Jingyi at the 168 bus stop, they're heading to school.
Mel became tanned, whoosh. Her legs especially. Nice tan (:
Jingyi became slimmer and taller, and she looked better without tying up her hair.
All become pretty alr uh. Happy uh. Hahahas.

Okay la, Sweety just called me, something cropped up again, got to go Audi cheer her up.
Tatas.

Oh btw I bought the brown one, the contacts I mean. I can see clearly now. LOL!
Tomorrow start proper lessons, luckily Wednesday short day. 8am-3pm.

2009-04-13T23:40:00.002+08:00

The love you can't have lasts the longest,
feels the strongest,
and hurts the most.

My heart's so painful it's physically hurting now.
I just need one person to understand me.
Out of sympathy, I ruined someone's life.
If he too, can't find another girl again,
I'll kill myself.

Both of you said you loved me so deeply.
Which one of you proved that you understood how I feel?

We used to be so happy. Now we cant even talk anymore.
You smoked 5 sticks, stared at your dinner for an hour.
I smoked 8 sticks continuously when you didnt answer my phone.
You're hurt. Aint I?
I didnt even touch my dinner.
I didnt even play a single game today in Audition.

I know why you feel this way.
Because this is not the first time this sort of things happen to you.
Plus, you thought this one would finally work out.
But no, I broke your heart just like what they did.
I dont know about them, but I seriously didnt have a choice.

You're making me so upset right now, I'm tearing when I'm typing these.
This is the 1st ring I split. I didnt reply your pm when I'm online was because I was thinking.
Its either I be selfish to continue juggling between you two.
Or I make a choice.
After I heard what he did, you can say its out of sympathy, or not,
but I broke down.
I was so at lost I didnt know what I was doing.
I just pressed that heart.

You once told me that you never got more than Daisy.
When we LP-ed, when I took that virgin Saffron of yours,
you were so happy I actually felt equally happy for you.
But sorry, we really didnt make it to Cuphea.

Maybe you're regretting why you didn't listen to the others,
that I'm a bitch.
You said you want me to be happy.

I'm sorry, I cant.
I wont.
I never will.

2009-04-13T22:59:00.003+08:00

Other than sorry, I only can say sorry.
I know its all my fault.
I dont expect for your forgiveness.
You can stop talking to me, I understand, really.
Thanks for the happy days you gave me.

I'm always the one making you guys upset.
I can't do anything right.
But you guys really must understand,
although you'll think I'm talking crap,
but this is really good for everyone.

I cant continue juggling between two guys in my life anymore.
Dont you think I'm a bitch?
I have to make this decision.
I can choose to drag, but it wont do anyone good.
It'll only hurt everyone deeper.

Nevermind, no one will understand why I do these.
All along, I've tried so hard, so hard, so so hard to prevent people around me from getting hurt.
But I know that one day, I'll still end up hurting everyone of them, deeply.

If I could use a million words to explain,
I would.
I really appreciate what you did for me.
But he really cant live without me.
Maybe you can find someone else, but he cant.
I know because I left him once.

I believe you can find someone better, its really the best for all of us.
Good luck and takecare forever.
I know you dont wanna accept my apology and think that all these are craps.
But I really didnt have a choice,
I didnt know I meant so much to me that he attempted suicide.
And I didnt know he did so much for me behind my back,
he nearly got slapped because he sided me.
He swallowed panadols because of me.

He's not trying to seek attention because he wasnt the one who told me all these.
If ahgirl never told me all these, I wouldnt have known how much pain he went through these few days.
Yesterday, I thought everything has finally been settled.
Little did I know, he was feeling so painful inside.
I thought he really went out to enjoy and didnt contact me cus he's either outside or asleep.

Seriously, I dont want things to be like this.
I really dont..

I can't afford to see someone die for me.
He isnt like us, break le can find someone new.
I know I'm very selfish to say this but I know,
without me,
you can still find someone else and fall in love with her again,

because after the girl did that to you,
you found me too.

I was really touched you tried to prove to the others that I'm not cheap.
But sorry, I just am.
I broke your heart.
I broke his heart.
I broke everyone's heart.

I'd rather everyone leave me like now,
so that you guys wont suffer with me anymore.

Can say I talk cock, or bullshit. But I typed all these out straight from the bottom of my heart.

It hurts when you think I lied to you.
I thought you understand me the most.
But I guess, somethings just cant be understood.

Where's everyone when I need someone there the most?
I'm dying to tell you how I feel, why I did all these.
But no, I just made another person mad at me.

I should make a 3rd decision.
Alone.

2009-04-07T15:09:00.004+08:00

We only managed to pass at the 3rd round.

I so love this new mode, cus of the heart x;

My new look, chio blonde uh, hahah!
And thats our memo [:

I found this in Jensen's friendster. Dont worry girls, I'll prove that guys are just as evil [:
I can't seem to upload all my photos at a time. So I'll take my time and upload one by one.
Oh ya before I move on, let me tell you guys a secret...
I HAVE PHOTOS OF MY IDOL, ERIC! HAHAHAHA ;D

Hope I can take one with him someday. I cant put the photos in this post yet cus my bro's busy and the USB's with him. Shag. Nvm, wait for the next post [:
Very angry with myself luh, always tag hearts tag until fall asleep. Eat shit man.
And I'm going for the Renamers chalet on the err 18th 19th 20th ?

Shag luh, havent buy school shoes & bag. The PE shirt fcuking ugly, I swear I'll ponten every PE lessons man. But the formal school U is kinda cool. Still need to go alter the skirt, abit long.
Walau at least I'm better than some other people lo, at least I bought my stationeries & file.

I cant find any Post It notes in Popular. Why so fcuked up one? I cant survive without them eh. LOL. You know what I wrote in one of my post it note?
How to go to James house.
#1: Take the bus downstairs to causeway point (wtf? I'm lucky I didnt write open the door)
#2. From woodlands inter, take 168 to bedok inter.
#3. from bedok inter, take bus number 225 green plate. alight at 3rd stop.
#4. alight alr cross the carpark then can see block 544, then the opposite block's his hse le.
#5. got two lifts ley, dont take the 1 lift de hor! (telling myself somemore)
#6. Fyi, block 545 is behind 544 (funny right, omg)
#7. Unit number (secret)

Imagine I read it out loud to myself -.- Why am I such a 路痴!

And.. Hao! Can you fix your tagboard alr?! LOL. He wrote this fcuking cute thingy on his blog:
falling in love is as easy as abc.
forgetting love is as hard as xyz (algebra)
i guess i just learnt abc

LOL! Cute right.

Anyway stumbled upon this survey in kuku hao's blog. Decided to try it out as well ^^v

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1) Which color is better? Red, black, green, blue or yellow?
Ans: Red

2) What's your first initial?
Ans: J

3) What month is your birthday?
Ans: May

4) Which color do you like more, black or white?
Ans: White

5) Name one of your friends
Ans: Baosheng (LOL)

6) What is the number you like more in nos. 1 - 100?
Ans: 9

7) Would you like to fly or drive more?
Ans: Drive

8) Do you like a lake or the ocean more?
Ans: Ocean

9) Think of a wish but don't write it.
...................................

1) If you chose:
Red: You are alert and your life is full of love.
Black: You are conservative and aggressive.
Blue: You are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love and give good advice to those who are down.
Yellow: You are a very happy person.

2) If your initial is:
A-K: You have a lot of love and friendships in your life.
L-R: You try to enjoy your life to the maximum & your love life is soon to blossom.
S-Z: You like to help others and your future love life looks very good.

3) If you were born in:
Jan-Mar: The year will go very well for you and you will disvocer that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected.
Apr-June: You will have a strong love relationship that will last forever.
July-Sep: You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good.
Oct-Dec: Your love life will be great, and eventually you will find your soul mate.

4) If you chose:
Black: Your life will take you on a different direction, it will seem hard at times but it will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change.
White: You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.

5) This person is your best friend (No? LOL)

6) If it is 1 - 50, you are a very lovable person and you have a great life.
If it is more than 50, screw the world.

7) If you chose:
Flying: You like adventure.
Driving: You are a laid back person. (No? Just think that flying's unrealistic)

8) If you chose:
Lake: You are loyal to your friends, your lover, and yourself. You are very reserved but emotional.
Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please people sometimes.

9) This wish will come true only if you repost this with the title:
EMOTION TEST, DON'T CHEAT
(I didnt wish for anything x; )

Aiks,
I just found out that Hao likes his ex girlfriend. Horhor, who uh? x;
Sad sia, I didnt SS our lavender ring's memo. No collection alr luh, boooooo.

Aye, my mum went for operation ytd, remove something in the womb. Got something like blister one grow inside. So kelian )':
Must be good to her alr. Must learn from kuku hao, act yi ge 24/7 mummy's boy, LOL!

Really regretted not appealing for RP. Even lj course I also dont mind alr. Fcuk ITE.
Its The End for me ):

Please await for my next post with pictures of my idol. Hehehe.
I'm off to tagging hearts now and feature AhBao & Hao.

Tatas :D

2009-04-02T07:19:00.003+08:00

TAURUS

Your life is your own business -- whether you are 'making a huge mistake' or not! More than a few busybodies are going to try to give you advice today, but they do not know what they are talking about and should not be listened to. Just because they have strong opinions about what you're going through and the choices you are making doesn't mean that they have a right to tell you about them. Stick to your own path. Don't waste time with people who want to run your life.

So you saw it? Dont give me any advices today yeah, I wont listen [:
I'm so addicted to this shit,

Had fun editting, hahas.
Anyway I went to Friendster and saw that Baoqiang's together with someone I know.
Guess Meisim will be as shocked as me if she knew about it. Lols.

Anyhoo, I went to Evolution to look for Gerald and Valentinos.
Gerald was like ' Jm, you look like barbie doll '
Valentinos: ' You damn short la, I stand behind you, I can see the whole view infront of me CLEARLY '

Hahahahaha, cmon, I'm like 160cm alr. Where got short. Is you tall okay.
Its just that yesterday I didnt wear heels out. Everyone must be thinking, waaa, miracle sia you never wear heels. LOL.
Cus someone told me I always wear until very nice, like not appropriate luhs. So I wore flats, black tee and white shorts. Simple right ~ ^^V

Valentinos and Gerald were already playing since morning. I joined them at 7pm as I had to go to WRS to take my cert then head to Bishan ITE to buy uniform, take photo for ezlink and pay school fees.
I told Valentinos I think I forgot the way to Evo. So he volunteered to pick me up at Dhoby Ghaut station [:
Then I made that Valentinos search for me for very long. We wanted to meet at Bunk, then how I know this fcuker so long, I walk walk walk, until I got lost in Dhoby Ghaut station. HAHAHA! How dumb right, I know.
Val: Where are you uh? I cnnt see you ley.
Me: I at here la, you can see me or not?
Val: Where la?? Your here is where?
Me: Here la, at the gate there.
Val: You at red line gate or purple line gate sia?
Me: Errr purple. * Looks up * Eh nonono, red red!
Val: Okok red uh. I see one This Fashion ley. You there?
Me: Ya, my here got one This Fashion. I walk over.
Val: You stay there! Dont walk alr! Later lost again!
Me: Eh you walk so long alr, I havent see you ley -.-
Val: Cb you at This Fashion right. I also outside This Fashion. WRU?
Me: Outside This Fashion la. Walau.
Val: This Fashion so big, how I know sia.
Me: Huh, my this This Fashion very small ley. Aiya you know Sweet Talk?
Val: HUH semo sweet?
Me: The bubble tea shop, Sweet Talk.
Val: I dont see any Sweet Talk here ley.
Me: Got barber not? Bside Sweet Talk one. The QB House.
Val: Dont have leyyy. Aiya you go Bunk meet me sua.
Me: Okok.

Then I was like, I got lost because I walked away from Bunk. Then now you ask me to go back again. Like I know how to. But nevermind, luckily there was this escalator. Then there was this sign when I was on the 2nd floor: PC BUNK.
HOHOHO! ^^V

He looked like Jiahao from far, he smiled to me, then I was like, follow lor. HAHHAHA. Imagine stranger smile to me then I follow just because I thought he's my friend.
Luckily he said: Eh you very dumb ley, like that also can get lost.
Then I know its Val. Phew.

Then walked to Evo to meet Gerald. He look better without specs, overall both of them are not ugly at all. Then I saw Kervonne, the well known chiobu. I was so excited, kept asking Val where is kervonne. Then he super bastard, stood up and point and shout very loud, NEHHHHH NEHHHH THAT ONE KERVONNE!
Then I was like, EH EH SHHHHS DONT SO LOUD LA OMG. Then slap slap his hand down. But he continued pointing and shouting D:

Kervonne must think I'm a crazy woman now. Boohoo. Anyhoo, I sat at com 1.
Then my speaker super loud, and Idk how to lower the volume. I was like, shit shit, why so loud, die die, how to off la sia, aiya hack care la also nobody seem to notice.
Then the two guys beside me playing dota was kinda pissed. Then the guy next to me told me to turn the volume down, then I was like oh oh sorry sorry, then nervously hovering over the fcuking speaker, trying to find the volume adjuster.

Then the guy was like, points to the extended wire, then I saw OH! faster turns it down * LOL. Fcuk man, I'm so dumb. The volume adjuster is dettached from the speaker one la, walau, suaku sia me. Then nevermind, after Val go, Gerald asked me to sit with him. Then I PM-ed him say, I paiseh ley, I very shy, I dont dare to go tell the person I wanna change com. You help me ask ley ):
He was like, WTF like that also shy! LOLOL.
Then he said ok la after this round of hands up. Then he played very long la sia.
I tagged my cpl's friend's exp at expert channel, then he pm me suddenly,
WOI YOU WANT CHANGE COM OR NOT DE??
Then I was like, WANT!
Then he, THEN CAN YOU STOP PLAYING ALRDY??
Me, okok x;

HAHHAHHAHA!

Then played till 10pm, Poop used Husky's account to pm me, told me to go over Era to look for him cus he's fcuking moodless. Both angry and upset. Being Jiamin, of cus I went over luh, although everyone say dont go la, you kpo for what, people sad you go down also cannot do anything. But to me, if I'm sad, the person bothered to come all the way down from so far, ps all her friends just to come over to listen to me rant about my unhappiness, I'll be uber touched, and it'll help definitely.

Although I did went, but didnt managed to really cheer him up, I listened. Maybe to poop, I dont care at all, but I did cared and I tried to understand. I'm rlly lousy at expressing mahs ): I kept telling him, aiya she where got good, you ownself say so much to me alr then you still keep on sad for her all that, somemore people got boyfriend alr leys, then you only her audi cpl, you jealous for what? You scared audi no girls mehs? I help you find la.
Then he kept saying he's very ugly, cannot find one la all that.
Pls lo, he's so much better than that lj face. LOL. Even James agree lo.

Oh yeah, thanks Husky and Feng for picking me up at Bedok station [:
Walau from Dhoby Ghaut to Bedok really damn far. You see the board only 16 minutes, Idk why the journey like fucking far.
Then aiya as usual, yesterday was april fool, so I fooled and also got fooled X:

Hubert: EH HUSKY, weiwei kena slap ley!
Husky: EH JIAMIN, weiwei kena slap! Faster go down see.
Me: HUH weiwei kena slap? By who? What happened sia?
3 of us runs down the stairs *
I nearly tripped and fall la sia. LOL.

Husky & Me: Where got people? * Blur.
Hubert: HAHAHA April fool!

-.-

Then he went up to bluff the rest of them another guy got whacked. Hahahas.
I noticed that all the guys who hang out at Cyber Era are all good looking, I mean those usual customers luh, almost everyday there one. Evo is more of pretty girls bahs, I mean not really alot of girls la, but those girls whom went are all quite pretty.

At Era nothing much luh, Medmed, Weiwei, Poop, Ming, Feng, Husky, Ahgua B, Raydon, Cha, Hubert, Ahbao, Nick, Kueh were there.
So qiao, I sat at James' com. Hahas, his book was on top, beside the cpu. I helped him put at the counter [: Hope he remembered to collect it when he went yesterday.

Ben lai meeting him at Bedok Inter yesterday to go to Era together. But I fell asleep again. LOL. You know why nottt. I tell you. Got reason one. I play audi at home until very late then only sleep 2 hrs wake up to go school, settle all the stuffs then go back home to bathe and change and charge phone and then come out again, go evo find G and Val, then poop say he sad, I go down cheer poop up, plus husky kept wanting me to go down also, then after that mousey told me he's working, ask me want go evo pei him not, he pay cab fare. Then I cabbed down to evo again pei him awhile, cus I play until fell asleep, LOL, so he sent me home. Then reached home alr, jitao TOH, sleep all the way till 6pm cus the stupid weisheng keep calling me,
just to tell me his account tio banned for nothing.

Then saw James' missed calls, so called back and chatted till 9pm, decided to meet up at Bedok Inter to go to Era together. Then fcuk, I fell asleep AGAIN. LOL.

I think one fine day, sure no one call or sms me already. I always dont reply, dont answer. Then when wake up, alot of missed calls and messages, I only bother to call back one or two. Sms all ignore. Imagine one day I wake up suddenly no msg no calls, I sure shag. LOL x;
There's this guy called Weili, asked for my number at Evo, I thought Gerald wanted, so I gave. Then forgot eh? Gerald has my number alr -.- The guy called me like twice. I didnt answer, hees. My sorethorat getting from bad to worse.

I called James, he was like, ni zao shui? He thought I'm his bro's friend. LOL. Everyone said my voice very man ): Now even worst, cannot even talk already. Some words got voice some words dont have. Laugh is can only see my mouth move, no laughter come out. LOL.

Anyway Nick and Ahbao really damn funny. Their dancing and their american accent.
Really suitable to go Mediacorp.
Damn havoc. Damn funny. If I got voice, sure laughed out loud.
Anyway I dont know why these few days keep dont feel like eating, but smoke alot.
Sian la, today and tomorrow dont know go where. Friday Anthony ask me out for movie. Then Hao maybe going down Evo.
Today totally no plans. Maybe stay at home la hor?
I havent change my blogskin. LOL. Can I hire someone to change it for me? D:

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Anyway, my cpl and I have decided to change our igns to --HAO-x and --MIN-x
-Queen will be --MIN-x
-EMOHAOx3 will be --HAO-x

Take note [:

2009-03-30T00:37:00.013+08:00

* Omg like wtf, when I came online in MSN, the whole com hang-ed there for 5 mins.
Guess what? I waited and 12 windows popped up. All MSN conversations, omg.
Long long time online once is good. LOL.

Lazy to blog, so here's a list of what I've been doing lately.

♥ Watched Coming Soon at AMK Hub with Weiwei the little mousey
♥ Jeslynn's BBQ on the 25th at Semb park
♥ Went to meet Sora at Panjang; Bangkit aftermath
♥ Went to Evolution & Evolution Square with the little mousey
♥ SICK! Down with flu, cough & sorethroat ):
P.S. My voice is so man I could sing Ah Du's Jian Chi Dao Di just like him, LOL.
♥ Slacked with Alize & Weihai at 173
♥ Slacked with Benjamin & mousey outside RP
♥ Stopped hanging out with Poon & Botak for some reasons
( I'll still reply them if they sms me or answer their calls. )
But I promised I wont go out with them anymore. Too much unhappiness between us.
I mean its good to be friends with them, but not close friends.
♥ Changed my blogskin like finally
♥ Put in new blog songs ( Screw the flashfetish la, Lovegames cannot be played -`- )
♥ Played Audition as usual, tagged fp till 4k at Evo yesterday, up 10+ rankings [:
♥ Got back in contact with James, everything's fine now
♥ Saw my gan LJ, -EMOHAOx3 for the first time at Evo yesterday, he was too shy to say hi
♥ Lastly, I'm so happy all my friends are coming back, weeeee~

And I wanna thank Jasper, Yikee, Jevin, Mousey, James, Husky, Alvin, Sora, Benjamin, Anthony, Augustin my biological bro, Alize, Weihai and all the other Audition friends
For always always being there for me when I'm down.
And sorry for the times when I didnt reply your smses, or answer your calls.
Although I'm not good in expressing my feelings, but I'm really touched.
All your smses and calls of concern, always asking me where I am, eaten already not, who I'm with now, am I feeling better, and those little little inside jokes in the smses which made me laugh. And everytime I'm feeling down, you guys will listen to me rant on and on about nothing.

I promise to grow up, hahas [: I've been very strong over this month, March.
Since the day I know Poon and Botak, my life changed tremendously.
Although I just know them for like, 2 weeks, they caused an impact in my life.
I learn how to love as well as hate. I learnt to give in, I learnt to be selfless, putting everything aside for the one I love, I saw how much love can change someone, how much you can do for that special someone.
But,
I learnt to get cheated, I learnt to fall in love with the wrong person.
But guys, I dare to say, I had alot of fun with them, really.
Although they had been very very mean to me, made me super upset, but still, the times when they're good to me, I'll never forget. Since they chose to be strangers now, I guess I'll just pretend I never knew them, its all a dream. Pick myself up again and carry on with life [:

Omg, I saw this in Estini's blog :
A senior citizen died of heart failure when his penis got stuck in a soft bottle while masturbating.

HAHAHAHAHAHA!
Retarded indeed -.-